hey hey hey...wassup ppl!! ok fine...i wont try to b happy...im sad..realli sad today...gt back chem test back...n EXPECTEDLY i failed...haiz....14/35.....i SUX!! izzt so hard 2 pass sci meh..??.. haiz...dunno lar....my fren gt 25 for it..d highest sumore u noe...he so gd sia...n im bullshit...haiz...hate myself so much tt i dun think im giving myself any chances to redeem myself....jus nw eng...we did oral...den b4 i ws changed partner...S sat wif me...den suddenly she brought up d hist test tt i so detest myself 4 onli getin a mere 64/100....d highest sumore...lousy isnt it..??.. den she keep saying tt i awaes beat her in evry test...n awaes d highest...i mean i feel flattered tt sum1 actualli think highly of me...but i dun....i jus dun think highly of myself...i sux...realli am...i dunno...mayb coz last yr in my class of 4a2...dere's my fren who i awaes kept losing to her in combined humanities test n im awaes 2nd to her...den nw she's in d otha class...i guess nw my turn to shine....but nw its getting tougher n tougher....its hard...realli realli hard....cn hardly manage....but i ws so disappointed in myself 4 mid yr 4 combined humanities in nt topping d cohord....A,W,S all won me....i giv dem props for tt...congrats...!! especially A...he ws so happy tt he beat me in combined humanities...hehehe...nvrmind..let him b ar....o lvl will b my turn to shine...im gg aim 4 a distinction....i hope i cn do it..dere u guys c...tts my prob...i gt no confident in myself to achieve anything nw...haiz....wd's happening to me man..??... ZhAnEy SuX....ZhAnEy SuX....ZhAnEy SuX....HaIz....
Den sumthin awful happen in skool...i think i cried...i mean dere's tears in my eyes...its definitely nt tears of joy...happy 4 wd sia...haiz....den my fren saw it....den he ask..den i sae no lar...nthy ar......den he gt sae tt i look sad in skool...really ar..??.. omg....tts bad..realli bad...but cnt help it...its jus happen...too many things been happening in my life...n its affecting me real bad...i cnt concentrate in my studies anymore...n tts BAD news...prelims is cumin soon...i gt to try haf d energy to study.....haf to try boost my confidence...but its jus too hard....haiz....IM SO STUPID!! Sumore i haf to try put a happy face infront of my frens.........n its nt ez i tell u....but oh well...haf to try...musnt let any1 worry abt me lor...who cares rite anywae..??...no 1 mah...haiz.....ZhAnEy peace outz!!
