yest on d 27th June 2007 my sis bdae HAPPY 19TH BDAE FIZAH!!! may all of us stay together as always!!!
we went to eat at BREEKS at eastpoint dere were d bdae gurl of course me,der,dan,cher,ner,sew,lin,mer,cass it ws so fun im relli glad to mit up wit dem again mish dem loads!!! I WAS HAPPY!! yay for me aft all of d eating n stuffs camwhoring was next muahahaha sori ill post d pics next time too tired to upload it muahahaha
aft tt d bdae gurl had to go home den all of us went to slack at tm mac for i think less den an hr den all of went our separate ways although it ws oni for awhile i did njoy evry minute of it relli i do LUV DEM LOADS!!
hope to c u guys soon!! tk cr u guys!!
oh gosh it so damn late aldy haf to wake up at 9 to do project at bk nitex u guys!!
HAMDAN RELLI LUV HIS FRENS SO MUCH!! THNXS FOR EVRYTHING!!
these few days i've been askin myself wd i wan?? wd i wan in life?? but i always haf no answer for that its VERI frustrating wen u jus haf no answer to that simple qns wen ppl cn jus answer in long long sentences abt wd dey wan oh well mayb i still nid a lot more thinking
im retakin o dis yr n i ws thinking to retake my o jus to enter the course which is biomedical sci that i tot i like izzt worth it?? is tt relli truly wd i wan for myself?? or izzt jus a stupid dream of mine to bcome a doctor?? it seems impossible it seems unreal but sumtimes i felt that it is impossible well for me coz at this moment i simply haf no confidence in doin well in my studies n d tot of actualli passing my o lvl seems IMPOSSIBLY STUPID!! my frens once told me that u urself haf to blive that u cn do wdever u wan if u put ur heart n souls into it mayb its true or mayb its nt i totali haf no idea being surrounded by frens that actualli believed in me that i cn do it is simple priceless im relli grateful and thankful to dem relli i am i cnt imagine my life without dem NO WAY!! i cnt live without dem!!
actualli im still not sure wd am i suppose to do nw?? study real hard for my o lvl?? OR concentrate on my ite course (my backup plan if i didnt do well in my o AGAIN) OR to jus giv up on life??
sounds stupid isnt it hahaha i noe n i cnt blieve it either im gg chg myself completely b sum1 that is full of confidence always look at d brighter side of life n jus be happy =)
hahahahaha to b honest i jus haf no idea mayb i jus cant accept the fact that i ws like THAT in the past i would thot to myself that i could chg the past hoping that all dis im gg thru was a dream BUT reality check ITS JUS NOT!! but evrytime i wanna chg who i am now d past stopped me it reminded hw a failure i ws in the past like most ppl would do is that dey would motivate demselves even more telling demselves that dey would b different now forget abt ur past failures its time to move on hahaha well not for me im d opposite haix that's y i kip blaming myself for being dis way i kip telling myself i cn do it but a part of me still sticks in d past making me feel im a failure no matter wad oh well i jus gotta try harder REAL HARD!! haix
hahaha until now i still haven slp yet my eyes are wide awake dunno y i jus cnt slp yet haix mayb my probs is still bothering me alot!! haix i dunno
i jus finished toking to farhan n siti dey actualli waited for me until i reach home n all im relli am touched =) tok to dem abt my probs n all well not relli clearly lar didnt wan dem to worry im not worth it dey gt giv me sum encouragement advice n all yesh thnxs a lot u guys tried but in d end its all up to me to make it happen like i said it aint ez im sorry abt d pessimistic HAMDAN i've been like this since ever not be able to blieve in oneself is such a torture u basically cnt do anything AT ALL!! haix life been fugly for me im trying to chg it but its jus not happening I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH CAN!!
THANKS SO MUCH FARHAN N SITI (luv ya lots!!!) TO ACTUALLI NOE THAT U GUYS ARE BY MY SIDE RELLI MEANT A LOT TO ME COZ I CANT SURVIVE ON MY OWN ANYMORE haix THANKS TOO MY OTHA FRENS WHO HAVE BEEN VERY SUPPORTIVE OF ME U GUYS ARE GREATLY APPRECIATED =) luy ya all!! muacks
a few days ago i received my O LEVEL ENTRY PROOF oh gosh im scared im scared ill fail my o lvl again haix whenever i wan to study for my O my failure kip lingering in my head d results i received dis yr are jus overbearing disappointing i jus dunno wd to do anymore im a FAILURE!! that would alwaes be in my mind if i actualli tried to study for O y cnt i jus haf d confidence in me AGAIN?? HAMDAN PLS LAR BELIEVE IN URSELF AGAIN!!! haix
these few days guess wd guys?? i ate a lot of chocolates lar hahahaha no1 force me to eat dis time its jus tt im fed up wif myself!!! i couldnt care less anymore abt pimples cumin out haix IM STRESSED!! mayb i shld stop werkin yup my laopo is right mayb i shld stop werkin in d meantime concentrate on my studies 1st but i jus started werkin wd wld my manager react to it sia i dun mind payin d typhoid i jus wanna quit d job aldy i dun haf to werk i jus werk for d sake of experiences n making new frens :) haix wd shld i do?? guys i nid answers PLS TELL ME WD TO DO i cnt decide it myself coz dere's too many things in my mind right now haix
2dae dated 21/6/07 MRC met up n did bfd stuffs well almost d whole grp ws present lar haix oh well next wk d whole grp betta b present coz we relli haf no time aldy to rehearse n all we nid dis time to do evrything n trust me it aint ez we nid to score man!!! so bought our materials n did d props 1st coz not all were here finised around 5 or so den all of us went home hahaha well not all of us lar me farhan n siti went to katong to play pool muahahaha we played for 2 hrs or so hahaha it ws fun!! i did feel a lil happy!! =) yay for me!! actualli to b honest i luv hanging out wif dem d laughters n all tts wd i nid in my life right now joy n laughter n of course frens support i relli nid alot yup i noe i may sound very dependent but haix at d moment i cnt depend on myself NEVER EVER CN I DEPEND ON MYSELF its true i hate to b dependent on my frens im sorry relli i am but haix nevermind
I RELLI AM VERY WORRIED THAT I CANT PASS MY O LVL AGAIN IM AFRAID THAT ILL FAIL THE SECOND TIME!! HAIX
as days passed HAMDAN is getting weaker and sadder its amazing he is still alive He kips reflecting on his past and STUPIDITY his failures kip haunting him =( that's not a good sign in time to come he definitely will collapse soon and he will NEVER EVER be able to get up back wen that happens sometimes he felt the urge to just giv up on his life BUT a part of him wouldnt let him do that coz they noe that he is definitely much more stronger than that there's nothing HAMDAN cant handle he relli hopes so =)
he is struggling to survive he is doin his best to stop thinking about the negativity that kips whispering in his ears saying that he cant do it!! he's STUPID!! he will FAIL IN WHATEVER HE DO!!! haix but it aint ez =(
emoing all day long he relli has no life AT ALL he relli want to breakaway from this STUPENDOUS PROBLEMATIC life of his he reli does wan that =) the onli wish that he has right now is to survive this ordeal that is stoping him to be wd he used to b in d past which is the CONFIDENT CHEERFUL HAPPY PERSON HE USED TO BE!!!
2dae didnt do much thing ar all i noe tt we received a lot of afd hmwk!! argggg 6 qns hahaha actualli its nthy lar 6 qns oni mah muahahahaha shld b able to finis it in 1 whole day!!! yeah i bgt my laopo d blue mushroom at minitoons its damn cute cn!! muahahaha jus for her =)
2dae went out wif farhan n siti went to ps to watch movie fantastic four the rise of the silver surfer hahaha its ok lar i giv it 3 ticks it ws jus average ar nt bad ar
aft tt went to clark quay to visit my ex colleagues n manager omg!! mish dem so much cn!! haven seen dem for like 2 months plus lar so went dere to c dem chatted wif dem 4awhile n all drink tok tok made new frens n all oh gosh i miss werkin at coffee club lar haix miss werkin so much!! hahaha ill visit dem again next time
2dae i ws so emo cn!! hahaha didnt tok much lar to dem i felt so bad sori its jus tt i gt no mood wadsoever relli am sorry i nid to solve dis prob of mine 1st den ill b happy!! =) hopefully it will b soon =)
RELLI SORRI U GUYS!!! 2moro is my class QC 2nd month anniversary HAPPY 2ND MONTH QC!! LUV YA LOTS!! LUVING SO MUCH TO B APART OF D CLASS!!!
yay!! abang farhan is feeling betta le muahahahahahaha
during pie we all watched a show called pay it forward d show damn nice cn!! i luv it so much!! den tcher gav us 3 qns to ponder
All dis qns does make sense n i relli wanna ans all 3 qns now
1. If had a chance to change my life, what would i change? why aren't i doing it now?
I would change myself. I've lost my confidence ever since a few yrs back. To make it worse, i failed my o lvl. Since then, my confidence drop termendously. i was half dead. the tot of killing myself did occur in my mind before. But after much thinking, its just not worth it n its a bloody STUPID idea of mine. I was in a depression quite long lar. i didnt show it to my fren. they didnt relli noe abt it until i told dem. they tried consoling me, telling me tt its not d end of the world. Well, its eazier said den done isnt it. they jus duno my situation. Other the fact dere are otha problems bothering me as well. I cldnt take it. Till now i still cant. i would always be in my room evry single dae. Crying, blaming,hating myself so much for being dis way. n i stil do all tt. I cnt help it. Im nt sure aft crying or blaming or hating myself i would feel betta. but im weak.im fragile. Especially wen im being pressured by my family to do well in my studies. dey haf high expectations of me. i jus dunno y. so wen ppl haf high expectations of u, u automatically felt tt u shld haf d same perception of urself like othas do. so wen u didnt do well as ppl expect or u expect urself, u felt tt ur STUPID!! and u've disappointed many ppl around u as well. Its sad. Relli. Wen i look in d mirror, i c a WORHTLESS STUPID FUGLY PERSON!!!!!!!!! my perception of life is all now negative. It doesnt make any difference wht i actualli did well in any tests. its jus tt i feel tt i would haf done betta. coz ppl expect tt of me since young. haix. All i could do now is to try n build my confidence. But im nt sure wht i cn actualli DO IT?? Im retakin my O dis yr again. for d 2nd time. N sumtimes i regretted retaking it. coz i jus dun haf d time to STUDY!!! haix
i wanted to do sumthing abt dis STUPID problems of mine. But im scared. Wif no confidence i cnt do anything. NOTHING!! RELLI NOTHING!!! i relli wished tt all dis ws not true. I reli hope tt dis wasnt my life. but reality check hamdan. IT IS!!! UR STUPID TWISTED PROBLEMATIC LIFE!!!! Haix
ACTUALLI THERE ARE 2 MORE QNS BUT IM LAZY TO DO ALDY HAHAHAHA SORI!!
hahaha 2dae ws ok lar finish skool at 2 dunno whr go n sudenly i feel pain in my stomach haix sian cn die sia d pain!!! argggggg
decided to go home coz i cannot tahan le den suddenly wen i drop at bedok d pain gone sia omg i ws like wth hahahaha actualli its a sign i think so after much persuasion frm farhan n siti i decided to join dem go out lo we all went to far east plaza haha i so called claim i nvr went dere b4 but in d end i did go dere b4 tt was like a few yrs back lar hahahaha farhan wasnt feeling well so forced him eat coz he haven eat yet sori bro but its for ur own gd =) he ws getting sicker by d minute so forced him to go home me n siti send him home b4 tt send him go c doctor coz his fever veri d high cn his body so hot lar n he's shivering but tt stupid clinic open so late lar at 7pm sia wah had to wait for 1 hr jus to c a doc n u noe wd he doesnt noe hw to do a check-up lar stupid sia!! sumore he cum at 745 lar 45 mins hello doc my fren is veri d sick cn n u cum so late!!! omg!! wd kind a doc are you man check oso dunno hw to check u nvr even check his temperature lar forgoodness sake oni check his throat n ask him breathe in breathe out dots stupid sia aiyoh!!! its oni like i think 1 or 2 mins lar ish ish ish im so disappointed so aft tt send farhan hm hope he's ok =) n yeah np ur my bro of course im awaes dere for ya =) hahaha tk cr aite eat d medicines n u haf to eat n nid more slp =) hahaha omg!! i feel so daddy-like sia hahaha anywae relli hope his ok!! tk cr aite bro cya soon!!
actualli 2dae i wasnt relli myself lar in d bus gg to pasir ris i ws in 1 corner listenin in my songs both earpieces in my ears haix i knew it i hate long journey lar tt is d time i wld think abt my life n my pasts haix i ws actualli askin myself a lot of qns such as why did i fail my o lvl?? why i didnt made it poly?? why did i cry?? why am i so emotional?? why am i stupid?? why cnt i jus accept tt i failed my o lvl?? why cnt i jus move on wif my life?? why am i so pathetic?? all my frens ask me to move on wif my life but i jus dunno y i cant =( n yeah wen i ws thinkin abt dis der were tears in my eyes i cnt blive it lar luckily no1 saw it lar paiseh sia muahahahaha i relli hope ill b able to breakaway frm my past n jus get on wif my life haix
2dae skool ws ok lar hahaha bfd lesson u noe wd for d past few weeks we've been doin stocks buying selling stks trying to make a profit hahaha it ws fun n cool learning how to calculate n all it ws a game d winner will gt a lunch treat by our tcher yay!! n u noe wd? jus nw d game ended n guess who won?? of course MRC lar my grp muahahahhaa but d thing is tt all of us lost money muahahahha we lost d least amount money nobody made a profit so we won!!! yay!!!! yay for MRC!!! we getting a treat from tcher muahahahaha cant wait!!!
so skool finis rather early today coz ofa lesson ws cut short due to facilities breakdown muahahaha yay for QC so accompanied farhan for job interview at bishan far sia muahahaha i didnt wan to go but dey forced me go sia oh well its ok i dun mind n bsides we were let off early so wth jus go lo
farhan gt d job!!! yay for abang farhan!!! muahahahaha n der are things i shldnt mention lar hor nanti bang farhan kite bantai kite sey takot sey hahaha lols hahahaha
so all of us went home straight lo coz none of us want to go home late n we nid to save money as well hahaha n yeah we've been gg home late for d past few weeks or so muahahahaha cool huh Zhaney signing off!!
yoz!!! mon arrives n i relli hate it so much lar evry mon i gt monday blues haix sian hate it so much cn!!! hahaha anywae 2dae ws exceptionally strange nt relli lar me n siti were early hahaha its been quite awhile since we came early for skool muahahahaha n yeah i ws kinda surprised tt jj came early oso hahaha tts gd!! yay for jj!!! so skool ws d same BORING N BORING!! we had to rush to edit our script n pass it to tcher coz i ws werkin during d weekends n cldnt edit it n send hahaha so had to rush it jus nw muahahaha n yay for MRC!! we're done!! phew!! tts a relieved lar
so 2dae was suppose to mit up my besties at swensen at whitesands n yeah i so called did ar i sat wif my ite classmates ar hahaha sori guys =)
2dae i relli had fun!! im happy 2dae!! AT LAST!! hahahaha it ws an enjoyable dae for me d laughters n all i relli luv it so much lar!!! THANKS FARHAN AND SITI!! luv ya lots!!
HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY FARHAN N SITI!!! RELLI HAPPY FOR YA BOTH!!!
N YEAH ITS WASHINGTON NOT WONGSHINGTON FARHAN HAHAHAHA SORI BRO =)
sat ws ok lar actualli its quite dull lar reached my auntie's hse at 12 no1 ws dere yet lar sian so basically d rest cums ltr lo boring den all of us jus chatted lar actualli ws suppose to go out lar but cnt decide whr to go sia dots so at last we go to chinese garden jus to lepak lo met up wif my cuz frens aft tt we went to playground for d swing hahaha u noe hw long i haven played swing years man deprived of childhood hahahaha lols so aft tt all of us wanted to play bowling or pool so went to jurong west dere area to play lo hahaha in d middle of d night luckily still gt bus to go dere if nt haf to take a cab go dere n swoosh our money hahahaha played pool till 2:15 am lar d stupid uncle insists us to leave wth!!! hello we are paying customers here u cnt jus shoo us away!! arggggg so evry1 ws hungry ate at macdonals luckily its open 24 hrs phew!! hahahaha d staffs dere tok n act like robots its like dey following a script or sumthin hahahaha n dey look funni too wif d stuid shrek headband lol y mus dey wear tt stupid thing oh gosh i pity dem NOT hahaha lols
so aft tt went to chill unda d void deck hahaha suppose to play cards BUT my lil cuz mum called askin him to go home dis instant hahaha sad n yeah i followed him back too bad mayb next time den we'll ton again promise n this time we definitely will ton until morn =) hahaha
actualli to b honest i wanted to ton until morn i wanna emo haix hate myself so much!! feel like jus standing in d middle of d road urging all d cars jus to bump me to death!! stop all my miseries!!!! haix criously i feel like dying or in a long coma i dunno lar i c hw lo haix
2dae skool start at 8am lar n im late for d class hahaha sori tcher evrything went well until i gt back my afd ca exam papers back haix it ws reli disappointing lar i gt 64% haix terrible lar im so sad can! depressed for life i still haven gt over my failure in o lvl dis happen wah i tell u i relli cant take it anymore im dying soon criously i am dying soon i dunno wd to do lar did my best but apparently my best wasnt enuf
my frens were all trying to cheer me up coz i look damn depressed and sad =( im trying u guys thnxs so much!! i noe its oni my 1st CA but still haix im suppose to b gd in accounting but im jus not anymore izzt bcoz of d confidence tt im lacking in myself? or am i jus STUPID!! Haix i dunno i criously dunno sumtimes i wish to end my life but wds d use im running away frm my problems i shld solve it rather den running away frm it hamdan u gotta blive in urself quick coz if nt d litle confidence in u now will disappear into thin air n u'll b dead haix
anywae 2dae went out wif my frens i ws feeling down n low so decided to spend hahaha so ate at pizza hut cost us around 9 bucks pretty ok lar den decided to go cycling at east coast omg in dis hot weather we were mad lar hahahaha we cycled to dis bridge n evry1 were basically emoing i think well oni me lar hmmm i think my bro is experiencing sum difficulties or probs bt he jus wldnt tell me abt it cmon man tell me if dere's relli sumthin bothering u im here to help im so worried lar tt time at east coast u go 1 corner n jus so called emoing pls jus tell me wd's bothering u u cn tok to me abt anything =) oh well
so aft 2 hrs of cycling in d heat we went to millenia walk coz farhan sae gt shuttle bus to city hall n u noe wd tt ws my 1st time i step foot at millenia walk hahaha lame but true criously its true lar im nt kidding der's alot of places in singapore tt i haven go yet n i relli wan to explore singapore wd kind of singaporean am i ?? hahahaha
aft tt accompanied farhan o go funan hahaha tt ws my 1st time dere too unblievable huh? hahahaha it ws cool dilly dally evry1 ws hungry so decided to eat at sakura but it ws 'crowded' so went to raffles city n ate at d foodcourt coz evry1 ws hungry so jus ate anywhr lo hahaha aft tt all of us went home lo coz so late le sian hahaha 2moro haf to wake up early sumore haix help my mum wif d cooking =)
Hamdan in long and painful depression haix =( I NID HELP!!!
Everyday passed im getting depressed hahaha i noe i noe i shouldnt b S.U.M.O whc means SHUT UP AND MOVE ON!!! all my frens hav been urging me to move on wif my life forget about me failin my o lvls but i've tried the scar in me jus hasnt healed yet wd do u expect of me man?? im human i cant jus forget things easily i relli wish tt i could jus forget all d things tt made me miserable but that's too much too ask its IMPOSSIBLE!!! I've fallen badly its relli IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO GET UP AND JUS PRETEND NOTHING HAPPENED my dreams are shattered i didnt made it to poly So much wanting to b a doctor in future not a chance Hamdan not a chance ur jus STUPID!!! its jus beyond ur control ur life is destined to b like this
i've awaes felt tt my life is all a lie i've been putting on a happy front im pretending to b sum1 who is happy which im so not n tts sad i dun even noe my purpose in life anymore wd am i suppose to do in life?? jus to fail evry single time in wadeva i do?? or to b successful?? i noe tt my life is in my hands as dey sae u control ur own life but i feel tt me having low self esteem jus impossible for me to control my life now im in doubts i blame myself for evrything i hate myself for being dis way i wanna change but sumthin in me jus wldnt let me n tt is my confidence
a human w/o any confidence wdsoever cant do anything in their way dey cant do anything right even though dey wan too but dey lack of confidence dey dun blive in demselves anymore n tts wd im feeling right now n ever i dun believe in myself anymore =(
i've been emoing/depressed evry single day tts passed feeling sorry for myself tt im being dis wae im veri fragile tts wd my frens sae coz whenever i fell down i cant gt up =( people will get fed up wif me i noe coz im jus stubborn But i assure u guys tt im trying me veri best to blieve in myself again n tryin to move forward n c d brighter side of life =) I HOPE EVRYTHING GOES WELL FOR ME!!!
im relli fortunate to haf frens tt care for me be by my side if i needed dem but i feel tt i've disappointed dem =( coz im still stuck at dis junction i cant move its like im being super glued or sumthing its definitely not a gd ting its been years im being this way n i relli badly want to breakaway frm all this misery der's oni 1 person cn help me MYSELF I WAN TO BE HAPPY AGAIN!!
hahahaha its been hmmm 4 days since i blogged hahaha getting lazier n lazier to blog le coz so many things to do n been gg home late sumore hahaha all d hmwks i haven even touch or do lar hahaha im such a bad boi!! muahahahaha
ok fine on last wed on d 30th of May me,siti,farhan,naz went out to marina sqr im suppose to study wif amin on tt dae but he cancelled coz he gt student council meeting wth hahaha no worries next time cn still study 2gther lo during hols perhaps so oni left 4 of us went to eat at bk lo hahahaha ok lar ive been like eating fastfoods lar omg i think im getting fatter n fatter by d day hahaha lols so aft tt dunno whr to go dilly dally around marina sqr lo i've been yearning to eat strudels tt farhan kips sayin its damn nice so wd d heck go eat it lo hahaha n turns out real gd farhan's recommendation is terrific thnxs loads!! d strawberry strudel is damn nice can!! u guys out dere shld try it u wont regret it trust me hahaha i 4gt to take pic sia sorri ar took pic oni aft we ate evrything finis hahaha lmao oh well next time ill take coz i wan to eat dere again muahahaha d day ws enjoyable as usual we had fun!!
On thurs nthy much happen bah i gt werk so aft skool took d same bus wif siti n farhan werk getting betta n betta i kinda like werkin dere u noe although its a bit boring n low pay i dun mind coz i werk jus for fun nt relli for d money ar to gain experience in a new environment hahaha n im 1 of d youngest dere so its cool hahaha getting to noe my new colleagues over dere being a cashier its damn ez cn!! but so boring lar nthy to do i dun even noe wd to do sia i relli wanna do boh i nid to revise evrything again coz i totalli 4gt all abt it aldy sia sian its been 3 yrs since i werk in ph mah wd do u expect 4gotten evrything aldy sia hahaha oh well nid to start from scratch it aint ez ppl will expect great things frm u coz i've werked in ph b4 ill try my best!!! hopefully evrything turns out great!!
on fri hmmm oh ya gt back my afd test back its jus a class test ar but i did so badly cn!! haix wd's happening to me ppl?? i supposely to b gd in accounting but dis proves im wrong!!!! argggg so f**kin fed up of myself sia zzzzzz haix im so STUPIDcan!! wadeva lar
anywae tt dae itself gt ofa exams dis counts 25% of our final grade n my mood wasnt into it lar so as expected i didnt do as well i wanted myself to do =( haix n i hate d invigilator cn!! hate her so much lar she cant even help us wif simple things blah blah wen i printed out sumthin rite n it never came out she cn even jus sae i duno nvr cum out omg!! i ws so pissed off cn!!! gg kill her sia dere goes my marks deducted all bcoz of her incompetence to help d students!!! n i relli hate dis kind of tchers who think dey're all that dey jus wldnt want to help ite students izzt gt prob wif ite students izzt?? if dun like jus sae lar i noe ite is not gd as poly but hello newflash ite is definitely betta ok!! im kinda glad i went into ite if not i wont met any of my new classmates which im gg treasure dem relli much coz i luv dem so much aldy dey are i cn sae 1 of d best classmates i cld ever wish for d laughters n all i treasure everythin thnxs u guys so much QC roxs!! Luv ya Loads!!!
so on tt dae itself we as in farhan siti n me accompany me to lavender to renew my passport omg d queue is damn long can!! 50 ppl infront of me wth cn die sia waiting!!! argggg aft tt went to eat at beach road oh gosh its been a long time since i touch foot on beach road hahaa i noe its a lil bit exagerating but its true =) hahaha ate fried noodles it ws not bad ar didnt finis mine coz to me its not tt nice ar still finding d best fried noodles in singapore i wonda whr izzt sia?? anybody cn recommend me?? i dun mind d distance as long its V good hahahaha
met up wif d rest for bowling at marina sqr hahaha we oni played 1 game ar amin me siti farhan hahaha it w quite fun ar farhan emerged d winner dis time hahaha coz i gt a couple of longkang hahaha oh well betta luck next time hamdan =) evry1 went home aftwards coz it ws pretty late aldy ___________________________________________
on sat i werked in d morn lo 11-5 it ws so damn boring lar!! nthy to do so i helped cut d pizza n all it ws fun!! coz we all basically slacked all d wae muahahaha hmmm nthy much happen bah 2dae BORING BORING!! ___________________________________________
ON SUN OSO NTHY MUCH HAPPENED!!!! coz i ws werkin 1 whole day lar tiring sia cn die u noe hahaha dunno wd to type le hahaha bored n tired n slpy ___________________________________________
2dae on mon hahaha evry mon i gt monday blues tt explains y i awaes wear blue polo tee on monday hahaha relli no mood to go skool n study lar too many things in my mind n im feeling kinda low in spirits!!! haix im trying my best not to show any signs of depression hahaha i hope i did a gd job bah =) oh well aft sko0l farhan n siti d couple accompanied me go my previous werkplc send back d uniforms n get my pay hahaha yay!! im richer =) hahaha lols so dunno whr go den decided to go to plaza singapura lo initially i wanted to watch movie but i guess it ws jus too late lo nvrmind next time we haf plenty of time yeah =) so went to eat cakes at secret recipe omg!! i've sinned!!! i ate chocolates aft 2 months of torture hahaha my fren lar forced me to eat chocolate but im kinda glad =) coz i've been yearning to eat but for d sake of my face i did not dare to eat ever again!! but i jus did n alot okay hahahaha omg i've sinned terribly muahahahaha n now more pimples cumin out n my face getting worse stupid hands of mine so itchy!!! argggg i look damn horrible aldy sia saded =( oh well i nid to start all over again nid to take care of my face aldy no more chocolates wadsover!!! i wont giv in to temptations ever again!!! hopefully!! muhahahaha ok lar nw i nid to do my hmwk aldy n projects nid to finis it up by 2dae oso!! omg!! i relli cn die lar so stressed up!!! haix argggggg
