HaIz...EacH dae went pass...my life bcame worse...i bcome more lonely nw...nw i noe tt my frens dun realli care abt me...i cn c tt...i dun nid dem to sae anythin or ask dem anything... isnt it obvious...im jus an XTRA...criously stupid of me to actualli blieve tt true frens actualli exists....haiz...sumtimes i tot of jus ending my life...but its nt worth it...i haven accomplish wd i reali wan to do wif my life since young which is to b a doctor n a fren tt cares...but i guess all tt is HISTORY...coz im jus nthy in any1's eyes...mayb im fated to b a nobody...NOBODY NOBODY NOBODY....
WelL todae nthy much happen...except i ws vry sad n lonely...tt A said tt he wanna go to prom but nvr bring d $$..i ws like... ArGgg...i mean dis prom thingy is once in a lifetime opportunity...i jus wan him to enjoy himself on tt dae.. but i guess he doesnt care... oh well...A im criously am tired...if u dun wanna go...den suits u...coz im sick n tired of evrythin in dis world.. jus do wadeva u wan man...i dun care...i jus dun care...sobx sobx...haiz...wadeva!! In class 2dae nvr tok to any1...coz i ws angry...so nvr tok to any1 except F n Jt i guess...so jus nw i ws reali payin attention in class...trying to though...but i ws vry lonely...tt time i realised tt frens are important in my life...but to actualli have true frens... its IMPOSSIBLE!! coz ull nvr noe wd ur fren thinks abt u...BUt on d bright side 2dae.. i ws kinda happy tt A & C are still 2gther...stayin strong...at least i ws slight happi abt sumtin...seeing ppl happi makes me happi...so i dun mind being nt happy myself...jus let me suffer in silence...i criously dun mind...(i hope) or mayb am i jus cnt face reality tt i actuali hate myself for nt being happy..?? Jus nw went home straight aft skool...coz no class... HAPPY sia..!! at last!! so 2dae i slept...coz no mood to actualli do anythin or watch tv...haiz...so watch d show oprah...n i didnt noe tt dere is a suicide website....n omg i ws so damn shocked!! dere are websites actualli to help u c wd kind of methods to kill urself...Hmm... mayb i shld try..??.. i duno...kill myself?? or live to suffer..?? haiz..tell me pls any1....im gg collapsed soon or even die soon.....i may nt noe...haiz....ZhAnEy peace outz!!
