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Saturday, April 28, 2007
Yoz!!

yest on fri
i went to skool wif my 2 ite classmates
its been relli long since i took bus 25 to bedok
oh boy it brings back memories
pass by my skool
seeing my junior pasirians gg to skool
it reminded of myself last time trying to rush to skool n all
haix
i do miss tt
mish me ex skool
mish my frens
mish eating in d canteen wif dem
mish gg for recess
mish being wif my frens
toking haf fun n all
haix
but we cnt do tt often anymore
coz now we are in diff skool aldy
very sad
relli sad
oh well i jus haf to move on wif my life

on d bright side
i've made awesome frens in ite whc i didnt xpect tt all of us are damn close aldy in jus 2 wks time
im glad relli glad
THANKS SO MUCH MY NEW CLASSMATES!!
dis is a new begining of my life
a new life tt i wish will make me more happier
i relli hope so :)

a new hamdan is reborn
he's trying his best to 4gt abt his past failures n move on
haix
arggg

to all my frens
i nid ur support n motivation
so that i cld gt thru dis big obstacle
haix

pls b dere for me awaes
i noe u guys haf ur own life to live
i noe i cnt depend entirely on u guys
thnxs anywaes




oh ya on fri oso
my ite classmates who join bowling went to tamp safra
coz we tot gt d bowling training aldy
but to our despair
dere isnt any
arggg
waste my bloody time sia
im so gg sue d bowling club i tell u
hahas
so we all decided to play bowling ourselves
hello
we're in a bowling center hw cn we not play rite?
hahaha
we played bowling
dere ws me,junjie,siti,jon,afiq,naz,farhan,yvone,candy
yup 9 of us
oni 8 played
it ws super fun sia
haha
u noe wd?
d score were like so unblievable
coz
6 of us gt d same score
me n junjie scored 104
siti n naz scored i think 68 i think cnt relli recall
afiq n farhan scored 72 i think
hahaha
cnt remember
arggg
coincidence isnt it?
n yeah
jon scored d highest wif 108 pts
very near ar
hahaha
next time ill win!!
it ws fun!!
i luv ervy min of it!!
:)
thnxs guys for being dere on tt dae!!
luv ya lots!!
Lost nowhere @ 7:59 PM
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Wednesday, April 25, 2007
yoz!!

its been like 9 daes since im in ite simei
wow!!
such a short time huh
but i made a lot of awesome frens
im relli glad tt i went into ite simei
well nt relli
but u'll nver noe if u nvr go 4ward n jus try
n tts wd i did
in d end im njoying evry bit of it
d best part ws getting to noe alot of new frens
oh boy
i luv dem aldy :)

ps: dun worri i wont 4gt u all even though i hav new frens!!

its getting tougher n tougher
accounting is such a tough n boring course i tell u
well ok lar
nt tt bad
ull haf fun wen u haf d company of awesome frens around u
so for me its quite ok
:)

but now tt its getting bzier n bzier
im afraid tt i wont haf time to study for my o lvl exams
:(
its so hard to manage time nowadays lar
argggg
scared scared scared



My greatest fear is to be forgotten
relli i am
haix
Lost nowhere @ 8:24 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
yoz!!

2dae in skool was fun!!
but hor for AFD rite
i like haf to learn d basics of poa AGAIN sia!!
wa lao
Its like so Ez lar
haha
i think so bah
im suppose to b gd in poa
bt im nt confident in doin anything anymore u noe
haix
sian
:(

well in class ws superbly fun lar
teasing n jokin around wif frens
wow!!
i relli cnt blieve tt we are actualli so close aldy
n its oni like 6 days u noe
haha
i dun mind it at all
during BFD lesson
we had to do a role play
well nt yet lar
but soon
in discussion lar
we gt like so a lot of ideas lar
hahaha
cnt wait to act
i luv to act u noe
haha


well skool ended around 5pm
den mit up wif my fren at skool entrance den to east point to mit up anotha fren
2dae mit up wif my sec frens
as usual ppl were late
cnt b blamed
haha
ate at pizza hut
gosh relli miss tt plc so much
i relli feel like werkin dere again
but den again i betta not or mayb i shld
arggg
i dunno
d pizza nt nice sia
prefer at malaysia
nicer sia
relli im crious
during dinner
evryone ws like tokin abt poly life n stuffs
i do feel a lil xtra
:(
i didnt wan to though
but
oh well
dun sae le lar
im like in ite lar
diff frm d rest
i relli cnt blieve it i went in ite
but still im actualli glad i did
coz i made a lot of great frens
im actualli starting to accept my life as it is now
well at least i relli hope i do

anywae aft tt went to take neoprints
haha
twice sumore u noe
hahaha
omg i dun relli look great lar
i so shack
sian


gosh i relli gg miss dem so muc lar
start skool aldy
veri hard to mit up le lo
diff skool oso
haix
sian
here are sum pics tt i took wif dem:



LuV Ya LOTs!!

I HoPe We WoNt 4gt EaCh OtHa EVER!!

MiSs Ya 4Eva

TiLl We MiT AgAiN

HaMdAn LuV U GuYs So MuCh!!

Lost nowhere @ 10:59 PM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
yoz!!

yest morn went to werk
n u noe wd?
d manager late sia
dere's no1 dere xcept me n d kitchen staff lar
i ws like omg
dis has never happen
so i had to d opening myself
n i relli mean it all of it ok
i ws like so tired aldy lar
sumore 2dae short staffs lar
dere were oni me n kahyin
we had to do evrything ourselves
being it bar or service or cashier
well to simply put it EVRYTHING!!

werk ws exceptionally bz
mayb bcoz dere's oni like 2 staffs n 1 manager
we had to dbl our pace n do things quickly
i had to like bring customers in
take deir orders
n do deir orders
n send it to dem
omg
it ws like so funny n weird lar n stupid as well
arggg
tired
relli tired
my legs nids sum rest
but nt 2dae lar
coz

went out wif my ite mates again
hahaha
went to sim lim sqr to buy thumbdrive for skool
haha
i ws lost
i nvr been to sim lim sqr b4 mah
omg
im such a noob
bgt d thumbdrive for $22.90
its nt bad
quiet cheap lar i guess

so aft tt went to walk around anywhere
went to eat 1st
in d end we ate at bk AGAIN
haha
i've been eating a lot of fastfoods lately sia
haha
been gg out oni mah
wd to do
im relli having fun
den went to d esplanade
walk around anywhr lar
bored mah
haha

now i veri d bored lar
dunno wd to do
n sumore dere's no nice shows 2dae
hw boring is tt sia
aiyoh
Lost nowhere @ 12:27 AM
Friday, April 20, 2007
yoz!!

5th dae of skool
its jus awesome
hahaha
2dae actualli all of us wanted to cabut skool sia
aft take attendace go cabut
but
we cldnt make our escape sia
we were all surrounded by bridge leaders
argggg
waste our time sia in skool
watching n cheering stupid telematches
i mus sae sia
d games are simply stupid!!
n dey jus dunno hw to play sia
aiyoh!!
i even play betta lo
pls lar hor

so wasted a lot of time in sch
aft tt went to town to haf lunch n go for prayers
haha
it ws ok lar
quite fun!
coz wif frens mah
of course wif frens surely fun rite
hahaha
we tok n tok n joke around lo
hahaha
it ws cool

too bad i ws werkin 2dae!!
if nt i cld njoy more wif dem sia
curses!!
haha
lol

werk 2dae ws as normal as last time bah
quite bz
but i cn handle lo
nthy bah
nthy tt hamdan cnt handle
hahaha
lol

finis werk at 10 so went home straight
coz i ws relli super tired lar
n bsides i gt werk 2moro morn at 8 sia
simply nt enuf slp u noe
sian
haix

i cnt wiat for dis cumin mon!!
coz i gg to haf dinner wif my BESTIES
yay!!
mish dem loads!!

wah!!
so late le!!
nid to slp
2moro gt werk
arggg
Lost nowhere @ 11:56 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
yoz!!


3rd day of orientation
is simply jus getting beta n beta i tell u
getting closer to my classmates
exchanging numbers n jokin arnd n all
it ws great!!
i think tt im getting closer to dem
yay!!
im happy to b in QC
QC roxs BABY!!


QC oi
OI
QC oi
OI
QCQC
YOYO BRADER WASSUP SISTA!!


hahaha


it's so fun!!


i luv my new classmates so much!!



ITE RULEZ!!




dun worri my best frens!!
i wont 4gt u all no matter wd
coz u noe y??
u guys are d oni frens tt actualli understood me
n i relli appreciate it so much!!
d care n attention tt u guys shower me
it ws simply priceless
i would not replace it for anything!!
i relli wld like to thank u guys so much!!
u guys noe who u are
if dunno den tell me
aite?
tk cr my frens!!

we'll mit up SOON!


i miss dem aldy.... :)

from left (der,sew,cher,mer,me,below ran bro,ran,ner)

from left (me,der,cher,seng,jas,fiz,sew,mer,cas,jj)

(bestie dan n me)

(dan,sad,jeng,me,andrew in china climbing the great wall of china)

(der,fiz,me prom nite)
(me,der,cher, acting emo except cher hehe)

(bestie cher n me)

(bestie der n me)
Too many pics to upload
upload ltr
hehe

LuV u GuYs LoTs!!







Lost nowhere @ 11:19 PM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Yoz!!

2 daes or orientation hav passed
im luving it in ite!!
hahaha
i noe
im actualli surprised myself

well
thats the least of my probs rite now
im like having fun in ite
having to noe new frens is 1 of d best thing
i luv my class so much lar!!
dey RULEZ!!

but
im thinking wht shld i go ahead in retakin my o lvl??
coz as u all noe already
im jus nt yet confident in myself
i'll never will
haix
coz o lvl aint ez man

ARGGG
i dunno wd to do!!
STRESSED!!

haix haix haix haix haix haix haix haix haix :(
Lost nowhere @ 9:18 PM
Monday, April 16, 2007
yoz!!

1st dae of skool
it ws at 1st very dull and boring
but as soon i gt to noe new frens
woah
it ws getting betta n betta
chattin non-stop
tease n all
it ws damn fun lar
hahaha

i luv going to skool!!
hahaha
call me crazy for luving to go to skool

now i cant wait to go skool 2moro
toking to my new frens n lecturers
i luv it!!
hopefully evrythin will turn out great :)

but it ws a pretty long day
oh boy ws i exhausted
all classrooms n canteens are all air-conditioned
yay!!
i luv my new skool so far
n i relli hope it will stay that way!!

Lost nowhere @ 8:06 PM
Sunday, April 15, 2007
yoz!!

i jus cant believe that im skoolin 2moro
omg
argggggg
i haf to wake up early
at 715 u noe
sian

now nt slping yet
hahaha
cnt slp la
too nervous abt 2moro
i dono wht i cn make any new frens nt sia
scared

gg mit my frens at tamp inter
5 of us i think
dunno lar
i jus hope no 1 late ar
we musnt b late for d 1st dae u noe
haha
i noe lar
i guai kia
hahaha
cnt b helped
im too good

oh well
gd luck to evryone who starting skool 2moro or whenever lar hor
cya

now still dunno cn slp nt :(
hahaha
Lost nowhere @ 11:04 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
yoz!!

noe wd?
im sick at last
haha
yeah
aft months n months
at last im sick
its not tt i wan to b sick lar
its jus tt i havent been sick for months now
but it ws such a bad time lar
2dae ws suppose to go for d chalet
arggg
now i cnt go
damn
sad-ed

yest unblievably
i gt high fever 38.7 degree celcius
sorethroat arrrg bcoz of dis i cnt sing for 2 whole days!!
hehehe
flu
cnt slp for 1 whole night!!

haix

hopefully 2moro ill feel betta so cn go to d chalet
i hope to c u guys 2moro!!
ciao
Lost nowhere @ 9:41 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
yoZ!!

2dae went out wif my bro drew n buddy ah liang
hehe
although it ws jus for a short while
i guess it ws nt tt bad lar

Im relli gg miss all of my frens sia
different skool aldy
harder for us to c each otha
haf fun 2gther
tok 2gther often
coz everyone would b bz wif deir skool n stuffs

haix

relli sad
relli sad

we all mus mit up u noe
i dun care!!
promise hor??

mus take care hor
it will b hard for me to look aft u all
but no matter wd
if gt any probs or nid my help
u guys noe tt im oni a beep awae aite
cool??

luv ya lots!! muaxs
Lost nowhere @ 11:50 PM
Monday, April 09, 2007
OMG!!!

too many things in my mind right now!!
arggg
now i cnt slp
so infuriating u noe!!

listen to my fav songs of all time
haix
reli brings a lot of memories
sad memories
haix
Lost nowhere @ 1:10 AM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
haix..

i hate myself so much lar
i cnt even do a simple maths sum
arent i stupid?

revised my maths jus now..yeah..algebra..cnt blieve im actualli stuyding
aft 4 months...
i tell u its jus simply not ez

i gt 6 more months to study 3 subjects
it seems a lot but in fact its too little
im scared
i relli am
im afraid tt i'll fail again

my failure is awaes constant in my mind
so wen i actualli felt some confidence in me
i will awaes look back n i saw my failure

its relli hard
very difficult

haix

im doubting my own capabilities
i cnt blieve it either
i used to b d cheerful happy simple minded guy
but was i even happy to start with??
i reli hav no idea who am i anymore

cn sum1 jus tell me who d heck am i??
cn sum1 jus tell me that i cn do it but relli mean it??
and not jus for d sake of saying it to make me feel good

haix

sumtimes i wish i could be hospitalised
in a coma to be exact
but will that do gd for me??

i nid answers
any1 cn answer all my questions??

haix
Lost nowhere @ 8:03 PM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
yoz!!

jus nw went out wif my bro andrew to study...yeah....i studying for o lvl..retake my o lvl...haix...sian..studied maths jus nw..wah...well it ws tough at 1st..but its slowly getting back to me..phew!! i tot i cnt do anything..but it turns out ok la...i nid more practise n hopefully ill b ok...hopefully.. :)

sharifah joined us arnd 3...haha..yeah..haven seen her for quite sumtime now..miss her lo..haha...ill b studying wif her a lot dis yr..she teach me maths n i teach her science.... hope evrything goes well for us...

well we finished studying arnd 5+ like tt...cnt remember...we did had fun as well..haha...laughin non-stop...listenin to songs...it ws great..hope we cn do it often..

i relli hope tt dis yr will b a great yr for me...last yr i had so many probs to handle..which resulted in my poor exam results which i so disappointed in myself so much lar...haix...so i've decided to study hard dis yr n make myself proud...sp wait for me...hopefully next yr ill b gg dere.. :)

skool starting le..nw vry d hard to meet up wif my frens...sad :( i relli hope tt all of us will still stay in contact n musnt 4gt each otha...we mus haf lunch either once a week or twice..haha..so we wont miss each otha so much....

i haf to revise my maths le...toodles...
Lost nowhere @ 8:56 PM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
HaIx

dese few daes been thinkin a lot...been thinkin is being a doctor wd i relli want..?? is tt y i reli relli want to study biomedical science??.. is it relli tt it...??..is it relli tt simple..??..

i jus dunno anymore...it seems tt evry 1 noes wd dey wan..but not me...

im still bumped by my failure..it will awaes leaves a scar in my mind n heart...jus d thot of it i may jus collapse..

y am i going thru wif dis life..??..dere's too much suffering...too much pain...ouch!!

im so fragile..i relli am...jus a simple setback has made me into sum1 tt hates life...hates how life works...most importantly...i hate my life!!

i relli hope tt all dis nightmare will turn into happy dreams....i relli hope so...
Lost nowhere @ 1:40 AM