Tuesday, February 19, 2008
I NEED A SHOULDER TO CRY ON
Saturday, February 16, 2008
WANNA KNOW WHAT I DO ON VALENTINE'S DAY??
WORKING -.-
totalli forgotten abt V day so i werked on thurs
it was also rand's bdae
so i was unable to celebrate his bdae wif d rest
sorry randolph
WORK WAS TIRING!!
SO MANY CUSTOMERS SIA!!
HAHAHA ACTUALLI IT WAS OK LAR
I XPERIENCE WORSE THAN THIS BEFORE
THE ONE THING I HAD TO DO APART FRM SERVICE WAS DISHWASHING
I TELL U DERE WERE MOUNTAINS N MOUNTAINS OF UTENSILS PLATES
I DID IT EVRYTHING IN 2 HOURS SIA!!
ALL ALONE
BUT LUCKILY JS WAS DER TO HELP ME WASH D GLASSES!!
THNXS JS!!
i would be lying to myself if i sae im happy now
sadly to say im not still
i was suppose to be ok wif my probs
bt i jus dunno y its bugging me now
haix
mayb a lot is at stake
exams are cumin
and im too stresed out
afraid that i wont b able to do well in it
afraid ill disappoint myself further
DO U GUYS KNOW HOW SCARED AM I TO FAIL AGAIN??
ESPECIALLY WEN I'VE FAILED MY O LVL TWICE!!!
HAIX
IM RELLI RELLI BLOODY DAMN SCARED!!!
FUCKING HATE MYSELF!!
SOBX SOBX SOBX SOBX SOBX SOBX SOBX SOBX SOBX
IM CRIOUSLY NOT IN DA MOOD TO GO TO SCH OR STUDY
I RELLI NID SUMONE TO KEEP ME COMPANY
ANYONE??
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
STILL STUCK IN THE PAST!!
these past few days i've been relli in deep tots
i tot i was OVER IT but i guess im not
ask my frens abt certain things yest
dey sae it takes time to regain back confidence
it may be hard but time will eventualli heal
EVERYONE will sure regain back their confidence no matter hw long it takes
YOU jus need perseverance and time
dun haf to rush things
sum sae jus believe in urself
the confidence will cum back to u automatically wen u believe
NOTHING CAN STOP ME EXCEPT MYSELF
sounds logical enuf i guess
i jus gotta continue TRYING n TRYING n TRYING
until i regain back my confidence
im trying my very best to achieve my goals and believe in myself for the past years
but its oni making a slight progress
what progress u ask??
im not sure myself
i jus hope its for the betta??
BUT ONE THING IM RELLI SCARED IS
I WOULD GIVE UP HALFWAY TRYING
coz i noe that im physically n emotional weak although i tend to be otherwise
IM RELLI SCARED
that my CONFIDENCE would never return to me =(
haix
oh wells i jus hope it wont turn that way for me =)
SCHOOL
Y IN THE WORLD IS IT SO HARD TO ASK YOUR FRENS TO CUM TO SCH??
i haf to like force them go to sch den dey go
if not dey dun wan
late oso dun wan cum for lessons
forgoodness sake studies BLOODY DAMN important ok!!!
i force u all to go coz i care/concern abt all of u all studies
but i guess u all dun relli care abt it huh??
i guess my nagging fell on deaf ears i guess
oh wells
i did wad i thing i shld do
the rest is up to u guys lar
MAYBE I SHOULD JUS STOP NAGGING HUH??
doesnt make any difference rite wht i nag or not??
u guys would relli LOVE it if i jus stopped??
u all noe who u all are
all i can do is jus hope for the best for u all =)
but please please cum to class/sch
it is important!!
i dunnno how to end this post!! muahahahahahahaha
HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY DALIMA!!!
may all ur wishes n dreams cum true!!!
enjoy ur dae to the fullest alrite!!
Thursday, February 07, 2008
i am sick for a week now n still am
gosh i hate it wen im sick
pimple breakout can!!
anywae nothing major happened
so der's relli nthy to blog about i guess
n bsides im not in da mood n im still sick!!!
my bro Zaid slpt over my hse
ask him over for his company
reli glad he cld come over =)
we played my PS2 the whole entire nite lar
i relli had fun wif him man!!
we slpt at 830am
hahahaha n had to wake up at 1130am
bsides he set d alarm at 1130am
n oh boy was it irritating!!
hahahaha
initiallly supose to mit up wif sharifah
but she couldnt make it d last min
in d 1st plc suppose to mit my pri sch mates but dey wernt free
oh wells
so called up nasrul,zaid n pak an to mit up for pool
played pool for 3 hrs i had fun
well mostly all of dem had more fun den me
dey kept teasing n teasing me lar
for wearing my skinny jeans n look like a MAT!!
wth!! i dun ok!!
ok well if i look like a MAT
im an EDUCATED MAT OK!!
muahahahahahaha
my bro pak an had to go home coz he gt werk tmr morn
i could oni spend time wif him so short can!! not enuf!! =(
so me nas zaid went to have dinner at simpang bedok
ate n tok
all of us didnt noe whr to go next so we headed home
i went over to zaid's hse for awhile jus to chill
tok abt d past mostly
hahaha dunno y
i jus miss the happy past last time
nice to tok abt it =)
i miss everyone so much!!
im relli worried abt sum things
all i can do is to hope for the best =)
