a lof of unfortunate events haf been happening to the family and ok to be fair partly its my fault too but its relli too much for me to handle i tried to be a gd brother but people think im not im jus tryin to protect her im tryin to be a filial n gd son but people think im not i tried to be the best that what EVERYONE wans me to be gd in my studies be a gd son more importantly to be der for everyone im not god im human i cant do all that i jus cant do all that anymore i wanna be perfect for everyone but im jus not im tryin to be perfect for them all i ever did in life so far is for them not for me i dun even noe what i wan for myself anymore i dun even noe who am i at all i have many probs that i haven solve yet more n more arises making me feel so pressurized on what to do i jus wanna giv up on life right now i feel so sad that my parents think that i dun care wen i do care about my family the reason y i spend so much time outside wif my frens bcoz i dun wan any of u to b worried about me to noe that im suffering inside would pains you would worry you but you dun get it you jus saw the outer me im tryin to be the best that you wan me to be but i cant do that anymore since you guys think that im not be the PERFECT SON for both of you do u noe its so hard to be PERFECT?? especially tryin hard to satisfy you both NO!! you guys never did know!! oh wells never mind all i know that I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH!! im feeling so sad right now
