Sunday, November 18, 2007
a few days ago
i made a EXTREMELY BAD MOVE
i regretted so much lar
which i dun wan to elaborate more on it
IM RELLI AM DEEPLY SORI BRO
I DIDNT MEAN IT!!
RELLI I DIDNT
i didnt noe u would be so pissed
i didnt noe u cared so much abt me
it was jus a play play thing
i will nvr ever do it again bro
i wont
u mean alot to me bro
i hope u noe that
i will nvr ever do anything to jeopardise our frenship
we are bros arent we??
luv u bro!!
Monday, November 12, 2007
weekends....
on sat met up wif bros andrew n wei liang
they accompany me to attend my cuz wedding
so sorri it took so long which resulted in less time for us to njoy the dae together
took bus 12 frm bugis omg i tell u im nt gg take 12 to pasir ris anymore
c lar andrew dun wan listen its too long journey
hate long journey lar!! muahahaha
but nvrmind we tok alot in d bus so that kinda make it up for it
played pool for almost 2 hrs n both andrew n wei liang had to go off
wth!!! we spent less time together on tt dae!! damn it lar!!
so col bestie derran but he was aslp
col sis fizah to ask her wht she's free to haf dinner wif me
she was sick so i decided to pay her a visit n buy for her dinner
we tok n tok n watch d cd 'secret'
i haven watch it yet so wad d heck jus watch it
i couldnt finish watchin coz it was so late aldy n i had to go off before i miss my last bus
it was ok lar not bad
but i had fun wif ma sis
rest well aite n take ur med regularly
i oni wan u to b happy thats all that matters
so dun worri im awaes here for u if u nid me =)
im jus a beep n col away =)
sun met up wif derran n fizah
i was super sick but still went out jus to mit dem
i dun mind
i mish dem so much can!!
so hard to mit coz dey're bz wif sch n werk
its awaes nice to tok to dem
especially wen all of us walk down memory lane again
gosh its a nice feeling
all of us miss sec 2 life n sec so much
all of us chg its relli a big difference
all of us matured yeah
hahahaha
miss it all can!!
both of dem tok abt life
but i didnt
i dun think its necessary anywae
its jus d stupid damn thing again
so no use sayin it anymore
its in d past
but i still cnt let go of d past!!
haix
oh well nvrmind im tryin my best ppl i am
had to stop d fun coz fizah haf to go off
went home tt nite
den i was super duper sick lar
cldnt slp d whole nite
woke up constantly in d middle of d nite
hate it so much wen im sick!!!
not enuf slp i cnt go out i cnt go to sch n i cnt even sing lar!!!
now nvr go sch 2dae!! damn!!
suppose to watch movie wif my classmates but cldnt
dunno wht dey chg d dae or not
sian
now rotting at home
i cant sing thats d worst part!!!
feel drowsy aft eating my medicines
gonna slp liao!!
ciaoz!!
gosh i still haf to study for my mps Ca
sian
im stressed out again
it will never end
sobx sobx sobx sobx .......................................
MANY LOVES TO MY BESTIES N BROS SIS!!
WE MUS MIT UP SOON!!
MANY MISSES TOO!!
I MISS MY CLASSMATES ALDY!!
=(
ILL BE BACK AS SOON AS I RECOVER FROM MY SICKNESS!!
Thursday, November 08, 2007
YESSAR!!! O LEVEL HAS ENDED!!!
IM FREE IM FREE AT LAST!!
well not exactly
i still gt ite exams to study for
sian
i noe im suppose to be happy
coz o lvl is over
but im not
im still afraid
afraid ill fail again twice
haix
mayb i shld jus forget abt my o
dun care wht i do well or not
but nah i cant
i care abt evrything tt happened in my life
irregardless of anything
oh well
i mish my frens so much!!
nid to mit up wif dem quickly!!
sat miting up wif buddy/bro andrew n wei liang
yipee!! cnt wait lar
many misses to dem!!
many loves to dem!!
jus 3 of us having fun 2gther!!
muahahahahahahaha
SHOULD I CONTINUE PUTTING A HAPPY FRONT?!?!
IT DOES HURTS SO BLODDY DAMN MUCH!!!!!
HAIX
ANYONE CAN CHEER ME UP?? MAKE ME HAPPY AGAIN??
IM SO SAD =(
Monday, November 05, 2007
for d past weeks
ive been mugging hard for my o lvls
im nt sure whether ill do well in it
but oh well jus gotta c d results next year
tmr my last pp for d o lvl
yessar!!! at last sia!!
im drowning wif awfully large amount of stress
which resulted in more pimples on my faces!!
damn it i look horible!!
to make it worse
i gt 3 exams tmr
1 being my combined sci mcq pp
2nd being my accounting Ca
3rd being my MPS mock test
gosh! im so fucking stressed up lar
i wan to do well in all mayb thats y
oh well i jus gotta push myself to the limits!!
jia you hamdan!!!
u can do it de!!
nowadays my mood got a lil bit more cranky
not much patience anymore oso
awaes emo
fed up wif myself more!!
arggggg
wds wrong wif me man!?!?!
i jus wan o lvl to end n move on wif my life
i realised that i no longer am happy
never ever in d 1st plc
i wan to be happy
but how??
haix
my life is all a lie
i tried to be happy but in fact im not
im putting a happy front
ITS HARD PPL TO FORCE A SMILE!!
it hurts
im trying my best guys
dying in my miseries
