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Tuesday, May 29, 2007
yoz!!

2dae ws so tiring cn!!
hate it so much lar
haix

skool ws basically nthy lar
its relli getting boring lar
dont get me wrong
i luv gg skool
coz i gt to c all my classmates n all
but its jus tt its relli tiring lar
sian
aft skool decided to do project
coz jus heard tt our tcher wans our draft 3 sia
wa lao
i was like so fast sia
whr gt time de
haix
sian
argggg
aft tt took bus 31 to drop by my werkplc to take medical chit lo
i haven take d typhoid thingy sia
zzzzz
went to d nearest clinic available
n oh gosh
im in dere for like an hr lar
-.-
den i quickly go straight back to my werkplc to hand it to my manager
wah
relli im so bushed
im tired n hungry
i wanted to take cab
but dun wan sia
waste my $$$

reached home around 10
i ws so famished cn
ask my mum fry me chicken to eat dinner lo
hahahas
so late le still eat rice
haha
im gg get fat sia like tt
hahaha
sumore i ate mango den eat watermelon den eat murtabak
wah
i ate a lot sia
duno wds happenin to me sia
criously i dunno
n now im sick cn!!!
arggg
hate it so much wen im sick
but sumtimes its a blessing
coz since last time i wanted to gt real sick until im admitted to hospital
but so far not yet
im jus waiting d right time =P
i relli am
haix
my mind is in a whirl rite now
my thots are running wild
so many things in my mind to worry abt
n yeah im so worried lar =(
haix
i jus duno wd to do anymore wif my life
evrything i do so far jus gets worst
n my confidence is getting lower n lower by d dae
wd am i suppose to do sia?
haix
o lvl cumin
exams in ite cumin oso
omg
i relli dunno wd to do lar
i haven study o lvl sumore
no mood n jus dun blive in myself anymore lar
i jus cnt do anything right =(
Sumtimes i relli feel like killing myself
n end all my miseries
but i duno lar
its jus nt worth it i guess or does it?
haix
i relli hope ill gt my answers soon
i've been reapin abt it since last yr
n its not doin my health any gd
haix
we'll c hw it goes in future
ill jus let nature take its course
emo-ing 24/7
Lost nowhere @ 11:35 PM
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Monday, May 28, 2007
yoz!!

dis is d entry for sunday lo
yest ws my 1st dae of werk lo
at tkph
hahaha
unexpectedly it ws simply awesome cn!!
i luv it so much lar
i ws like so scared cn
coz 1st dae of werk n stuffs
i dunno wht d staffs dere will like me or not sia
scared=(
but in d end
dere were all so frenly cn!!
hahaha
i gt to noe a lot of riders dere lo
so frenly lar
n funni sia!!
gt to noe 2 guys tt cum frm ite simei oso
hahas
cool lar!!
luckily gt sum1 my age de werk
phew
hahaha
so 1st dae of werk did cashier sia
it ws ok lar
quite n ez job
but a lot of thing to rmb cn
especially d closing lar
omg!! cn relli die lar!!
like tt i think i cn bcome manager sia
wa lao!!
hahahahas
i ws supose to end at 10
but in d end i finished my so called closing by 1120 sia
wth
luckily gt sum1 send me home by bike sia
hahaha
im so lucky cn!!
my dad's fren d son
n i noe him
i find him familiar
hahahas
he finished werk around 9
n he actualli waited for me for 2 hrs u noe
im like so touched cn =)
THANKS SO MUCH ABANG FAIZ!!
reach home around 12 like tt bah
well overall i think d job is ez lar
jus tt d closing is troublesome lar
i dunno wht my closing cashier like tt or not sia
haix
sian
oh well its oni my 1st day anywae
so dun care lar
im sure ill b able to gt d hang of it in times to cum
hopefully =)

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2dae on mon
skool as usual
evry mon i gt mon blues
hahaha
ill awaes wear blue on mon
yay!!
2dae afd tcher not here
so basically slack thru d period doin nthy lo
hahaha
so oni attended ofa lesson 2dae sia
no care session or bfd coz tcher oso absent
so basically 2dae ws a waste of time cumin to skool cn!!
arggggg
so we went to food fest at expo lo
omg
n my foot are like hurting in pain cn!!
im wearing new shoes mah
n omg i think i gt blisters sia
sian
so i basically walk wif a slight limp n PAIN!!!
i dun even noe hw i manage to last until thru d nite sia
aft tt went to changi airport to eat lo
at popeye chicken n biscuits
hahaha
it ws expensive lar
but hey i nvr tried it b4
so wd d heck
jus try lo
n its actualli not bad =)
thnxs guys for intro-ing me to new food in singapore
hahahaha
so aft tt went back skool
coz we 4gt to tap card
hahas
n bsides d guys haf bfd lesson to attend too
so aft tt dilly-dally in skool decidin whr to go next
so we as in me siti amin n farhan went to katong to play bowling
n u noe wd?
d bowling dere no more sia
wtf!!
i haven gone dere to play bowling for so long aldy
now dey died on me??
wth
so aft tt duno whr go
so decided to go eat at parkway parade lo
d banquet
haha
it ws amin's first time in parkway
hahaha
yay!!
so aft eating i nid to go take my typhoid thingy
n oh boy
we took cab coz it ws late aldy lar
n dey accompany me for me sake cn!!
thnxs u guys
took cab n i pay
it cost me 10 bucks sia frm parkway to dere
wah
dere goes my $$$$
sobx sobx
hahaha
so reach d clinic den
u noe wd?
dey sae dey dun authorised typhoid
wtf!!
i spend like 10 bucks jus to go dere n u sae u dun authorised it
argggg
i relli feel like killing ppl aldy sia!!
arggg
so col my manager
den he said i nid to go take a new medical chit
i ws like wth
cn die sia
nid to go back d werkplc n take a new 1 sia
die sia
so tired sia
den not oni tt
i wasted my fren's time oso sia
i feel so bad sia
dey accompany me sia
IM RELLI SORRY U GUYS!!
IM SORRI FARHAN SITI N AMIN!!
ILL MAKE IT UP TO U!!
N RELLI THNXS A LOT FOR ACCOMPANYING ME!!
I NOE IT MUS HAF BEEN A TORTURE RITE??
lol
so evry1 went home lo aft tt
coz late le
hahaha
relli sori relli sori relli sori relli sori relli sori
relli sori relli sori relli sori relli sori relli sori
=( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(

n thnxs again for accompanying me 2dae!!
relli appreciate it!! =)
n yeah so sorri!!

n yay for me
coz finis at last bloggin
phew!!
hahaha
Lost nowhere @ 10:07 PM
yoz!!

hahahaha
yest cnt finis all my 4 entries sia
zzzz
so tired aldy n slpy le
hahaha

so 2dae now in skool
ofa lesson ill take dis time to blog lo
hahaha


on sat i went to werk at cc lo
hahaha
my last dae sia of werk
sad
relli sad
gonna mish all my cc colleagues sia
took pics wif dem lo
hahahas
i wanted to cry but i still cn visit dem mah
so cry for wd sia
in fact im cumin back on d 4 june to gt my pay
so cn still visit dem mah
hahahaha
yay!!
cnt wait!!

tt dae wen i ws werkin
i gt a msg frm a fren of mine
hahaha
askin me wanna go out not aft werk
hahaha
i ws like we all jus met yest
haha
now wanna go out again
hahahaha i dun mind lo
i luv gg out wif dem sumore
so i dun mind!!

hahahaha
dey haf to wait for me ar
coz my last dae of werk mah
nid to tok to my collleagues n take pics wif dem
so sori ar!! =(
we didnt noe whr to go
so went to bugis lo coz nid to buy my sis contact for her lo
den decided whr to go eat lo
i wanted sumthin light coz ltr im gg out to eat dinner wif my frens
so walk around bugis n i decided to eat at 'DE TOAST'
hahaha
i ate toast wif kaya n mango freeze
hahaha
d kaya taste rather weird lar
not d normal kaya tt i usualli eat at home
but still i giv tt toast 2 stars lo
hahaha
my fren ate ice cream on a toast
nice leh wif ice cream leh
nice lo
hahahaha
so aft tt duno whr to go
we all went to national library
hahahaha
2nd time gg dere lo
so fun!!
den my fren brought me to d wd level i 4gt le
i think its 5th floor bah
deres so called like a forest for ppl to jus hang or do deir own stuffs lo
hahaha
cn sae for couples lo
hahaha
kinda felt like a light bulb =(
but its ok bah
i dun mind
used to it le
i think
hahahaha

aft tt i met up wif my 4 besties lo in tm
we ate at ljs lo
had fun wif dem so much lo
d talks n laughters
i relli miss all tt
relli miss old times =(
relli miss secondary life
whr all of us ate together during recess
n had fun talkin laughing
hahahaha
n bitching
it ws fun!!
so aft tt all of us went home lo
coz its late aldy
mish dem!!
tk cr!!
Lost nowhere @ 10:13 AM
yoz!!

let me c
a few days i nvr blog le
hahaha
jus plain lazy n tired tts all
ok let's recap

hmmmm thurs
skool as per normal
finis at around 2 i think
den dilly dally in skool for awhile
waiting for farhan
deciding whr to go n all
hahahas
so decided to go geylang eat n play pool
4 d 1st time ever i ate chicken char siew rice
hahaha
nice leh
not bad
i wan to eat sumore!!
farhan u promise to bring me go eat d nicest chicken char siew rice leh
wen will tt b?
me herman siti farhan
went to geylang n eat at banquet
aft tt we went to play pool at grandlink
hahahas
its been quite long since i went dere to play pool
hahahas
miss those days so much!!
d pool area is not bad
but i dun like d ambience
its jus not as gd as at katong pool
hahahas
i noe i shldnt compare
but its true cn!!
hahahas
so played dere around i think 2-3 hrs bah
n so all of us went home straight aft tt
siti n farhan took separate cabs
me n herman took bus
hahas
coz we live near mah

it ws njoyable dae wif dem!!
luv it so much!!

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Fri is here
so fast rite
hahaha
so basically evry fri we haf oni 2 lessons
bfd n afd
bfd
omg
onli 12 turn up out of 42
pathetic isnt it
haix
aiyoh
wd's happening to d class sia
so disappointed
relli disappointed sia
n so afd came n yeah
revised cashbook again
blah blah
do worksheets n more worksheets
basically skool is jus plain boring cn!!
so aft tt all of went to tm to eat
we ate at banquet lo
coz all otha fastfood restaurants are crowded lo
so almost evry1 ate lo
den we guys went for prayers lo
2dae actualli gt bowling
but its held at yishun
wtf!!
u expect me to travel to yishun jus to bowl n pay for ourselves
omg!!
waste my bloody time if i actualli go dere sia
arggggg!!
im so quiting bowling aldy
joining either badminton or tennis bah

so decided to go out wif farhan n siti lo
we all went to watch movie at lido
hahahas
so fun lo
we watched blades of glory!!
it so damn funni cn!!
hahaha
i lazy to tell u guys wds so funi abt tt movie
coz im jus too tired
n yeah im lazy
n yeah its betta if u guys watch it urselves
it will b great!!
u wont regret watching
so go ahead!!
hahahas
we watched around 520 n ended around 7
i could actualli go out wif dem sumore but im miting my besties for dinner at afghan!!
so rushed back to tamp to mit daniel n cherlyn
n took cab
in d end all 3 of us late
hahahas
daniel had to treat us all drinks
thnxs dan!!
so i ate nasi goreng kampong (which means in english is tt fried rice cooked in old fashioned style)
hahahas
sumthing like tt lar
dunno lo
hahas
aft tt all of us went home lo
we took pics 2gther
mayb ill post it next time
now tired!!
oh ya
while waiting for bus
i met wan aboi at bustop
he sent nadzirah home
yeah!!
miss him so much cn!!
haven seen me so long
even though we same skool sia
hahahas
-.-
Lost nowhere @ 12:22 AM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
hahahas

its been 3 daes since i blogged
sori lar
been so damn bz cn
so illl recap each dae de
oh gosh
dis entry gg b damn long lar

on mon
skool as usual lo
nthy special
so aft skool we decided to play pool
hahaha
its been quite sumtime since i last played lar
der were me siti hairul herman n naz
its so damn fun lar
BUT Hor!!!
i ws so damn suay cn!!
D Black ball go in 3 in a row sia
walao!!
i ws like so sad sia
so suay sia
i like so pissed lar
hahahaas
i lost to all except herman
hahahas
amazingly i won him
he pro sia
mayb bcoz he doesnt haf his specs wif him
so i kinda at d advantage bah
but still haha
i won sum1 AT LAST!!!
we played until i think 730pm
it costs us $12
not bah lo
2 hrs of play i guess
all of us went our separate ways
herman send siti to her bustop
naz went home by himself
me n hairul took bus 14
haha
we totalli took d wrong bus cn!!
it basically took us a journey around bedok sia
very long route sia
walao
luckily i wasnt alone
at least gt hairul to tok to
n yeah we tok all d way
hahahas
it ws criously fun lar
thnxs u guys for d wonderful evening!!
i relli had fun n i do hope u guys did too
we mus haf dis kind of small outings again!!
luv ya lots!!

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on tues
omg
i tell u
im so f-king stressed up cn!!
afd ca is 2dae
n i hav no confidence in passing it lar
to begin wif do i even haf any confidence in me ever?
haix
i criously scared tt ill do badly sia
its 20% sia
if i dun do well
my final grade will b affected
i nid to gt A for afd for gdnessake
im supose to b gd in accounting
arggggg
haix
so stressed up cn!!
not only tt
im like so stressed up abt my o lvl lar
sumtimes i relli regret retakin my o sia
coz im actuali njoyin here in ite
unexpectedly yeah
coz my classmates chg my conception of life in ite
dey made it so fun to b in skool
n im relli thankful to dem!!
luv ya lots!!

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on wed
it ws fun lar
skool ws exceptionally short
coz pie n sw ws cancelled
afd we did revision for cashbook
farhan came to skool
he's aldy sick lar
i suspect its food poisoning lar
he kips burping n stomach pain
n he gt fever
but he stil cum skool
i ws like hello sick aldy rite dun cum skool n rest at home
so stubborn sia
aiyoh
i ws like so worried and concerned lar
coz he looks so weak
haix
pester him to go home but he jus wont budge
nw i noe tt he's relli stubborn
hahaha
he ate his medicine so i guess he's feeling slightly betta
we finished skool around 2
n dey jus cnt make any decision sia
so ask hairul n farhan wht dey wanna go play pool
dey sae anything
n im fine wif it oso
bsides i gt a job interview ltr on
i wanted dem to accompany me
n dey did!!
thnxs u guys!!
luv ya loads!!
my job interview starts at 430pm
so b4 tt siti decides to go east coast to cycle
but i guess its jus too late bah
coz i gt interview
so we jus went to d hawker centre n jus hang out until its time to go off
hahaha
treated farhan n hairul drinks
omg
its like so scorchin hot cn!!
cn die sia!! -.-
in d end i ws late for d interview
but nthy happen
hahas
i jus dunno y lar
i jus felt nervous b4 gg in for d interview
i duno y
its nt as if dis is d 1st job interview tt i did
but its jus tt mayb its a new environment n i do not noe any1 dere
mayb tts y
im scared
hahahas
-.-

so aft tt went to katong again to play pool
hahahas
its so fun cn!!
now its oni me siti farhan n hairul
4 of us playing pool
stupid sia tt pool shop
me farhan n hairul wore pe shirt
n dey sae cnt go in
coz so called dey noe its skool pe shirt de
argggg
so angry sia!!
so in d end me n farhan had to chg into our singlet
omg
i look so funni lar
hahaha
look like apek sia..hahas...lols!!!
so at last able to go in n start playing pool!!!
2dae i nt suay sia
hahaas
i so happy de
i won all 3 persons
hahahas
no black ball went in dis time
phew!!
dis time we played i think 3 hrs sia
wah
so damn long rite
hahas
it ws fun
n we all njoy playin
it cost us $17.8 i think
hahahas
n by d time we're done playin it ws 845pm i think
so damn late le lo
hahas
so siti n farhan took cabs go home
but me n hairul took bus again
hahas
n dis time we took bus 10
hahahas
n oh boy
we took d wrong bus again
looks like we jus nvr learn our lesson
we thot tt it goes to bedok
but in d end it goes to tamp inter
n omg!!
its quite long oso sia
we reached i think tamp mrt around almost 930pm
i cn atualli take bus 65 to my house
but i guess i shld accompany hairul through a few stops in d mrt
hahas
i dun mind =)
so reached home jus on time to watch american idol
hahaha
i dunno who im rootin for
but judgin by deir performances
i haf to sae jordin deserves to win dis yr
although she's 17 but she gt potential
n i do blieve tt she'll bcome an amazing star 1 dae
hahas
her choices of song tt nite ws a definite better choice den blake
n her vocals ws spot on
especially for the 3rd song she sang
she deserves to win i guess
as for blake
he totalli chose d wrong songs
i ws disappointed =(
relli i am
i tot he would sing somewhere only we know by keanes
coz wen he sang tt song in top 24
he jus sound amazing
but too bad he didnt
oh well
we jus haf to c d results 2moro!!
hope d beta singer wins!!

PS: thnxs to hairul siti n farhan for accompanyin me for d interview 2dae
appreciate it lots!!
tk cr guys!!
Lost nowhere @ 11:44 PM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
yoz!!

yest on sat
i ws werkin
haha
d kitchen staffs are like gg to sentosa lar
as an outing!!
not fair lar
arggg
hahahas
took pics wif dem
it ws fun
werk ws exceptionally boring in d morn
but wen it came to me finishin werk
customers jus kip cumin in lar
omg
dey jus luv me so much izzt??
hahaha
until dun let me go home like tt sia
hahahas
so many ppl sia
n im so damn tired -.-
now im kinda hating serving customers aldy
haix

so aft werk
dere's a family gathering at my aunt hse
i long time nvr c my lil cuzzies
so wd d heck
jus go lar
although im tired
haha
luckily otw in d mrt i gt a company or vison
hahas
thnxs man
if nt im gg b damn bored lar
no 1 to tok to me
sian

reach my aunt hse d 1s thing i do ws to eat
hahaha
im famished leh
wd to do
ate so early at werk
sumore its oni american breakfast
whr gt enuf sia
zzzzz
stupid sia!!
hahahas
so aft tt i decided to go out causeway point
coz dere's nthy to do
walk around causeway point
n i treated all my lil cuzzies to mac ice cream
hahas
it cost me $7 totals
hahas
nvrmind bah
its nt evrytime deir older cuz treats dem
n bsides i haven seen dem for so long lar
haha
so its ok
nw i nid to withdraw more money
hahahas
ate cotton candy at d funfair
hahahas
its aldy quite late
n 1 of my lil cuz wanna quickly go home to watch soccer
so we all went home straight
in d end we took d wrong bus
well nt relli wrong bus lar
its jus tt dis bus will take us at least 1 hr to reach my aunt hse
hahahas
so stupid sia all of us
diaoz
so in d end we took cab
n i paid for it oso
luckily it oni cost me 4 bucks
n now i relli nid to withdraw more money for skool
haha

so i tot of slping over sum1 hse
so slpt over my lil cuz hse in yishun
hahaha
i ws bored n yeah it ws oni a short lil while wen i mit him n d rest
so dis is a chance to hang out
hahas
ask him abt his mid yr n all
hahahas
it ws quite badly done
luckily its oni d mid yr
u beta buck up ar boi!!
nid help jus cum to me lo
=)

watched d fa cup final btwn manU VS Chelsea
arggg
Chelsea won sia
hahas
by 1-0
too bad
but look at d bright side
at least manU won d epl
although it wld b betta if dey won both
but wd d heck
nvrmind
betta luck next time
=)

i jus came back frm my lil cuz hse at 730pm
oh gosh
im so beat
i ws suppose to gt my grp script to edit it
but my leader not online
zzzz
i nid to edit
hahaas
but luckily oso
coz im so damn tired lar
n im still veri d sick
sian
hated it wen im sick
argggg
oh well jus gotta eat more medicine den
hahahas
i think im slping early 2dae
so ciao!!
Lost nowhere @ 9:36 PM
Friday, May 18, 2007
yoz!!

guess wd??
i went to skool
but i ws late lar
my mum didnt wake me up
n i woke up at 7am
hahas
late for bfd lessons
hahahahas
ok tts fine
but i nid to present about a company called TT international
n im sick u noe
thnxs to my grp
i present it alone
thnxs alot man!!
hahahas

next ws afd lesson
gt my afd test back
oh gosh
its so disappointing
haix
i relli am a failure
i jus passed u noe
50%
isnt tt pathetic
1 of d lowest again!!!
haix
y cnt i jus score betta grades in a subj tt im suppose to b gd at?
haix
hate myself so much can!!
sumtimes i jus wanna giv myself a gd cry
but wont tt show im weak?
haix
i jus dunno wd am i doin anymore
i cnt do well in my tests
n now my afd CA is cumin dis tues
n im nt ready yet
haix
sian
saded =(
hw am i supose to excel in ite??
haix

2dae gt cca
im in bowling mah
hahas
luckily 2dae gt if nt i sue d skool aldy sia
but still haf to wait for 1 hr to actualli gt a lane
argggg
stupid sia!!
so at last we gt to play
dots
n oni 1 game lar
arggg
i scored d 2nd highest in d grp with 126 pts
1st was sum1 i dunno wht he frm our skool not he scored 199 pts
3rd ws junjie wif 122 pts
4th ws siti wif 92 pts
5th ws farhan wif 82 pts i think
hahas
cnt remember d rest le
lols

so aft tt all of us decided to go haf dinner 2gther
so we went to parkway parade
oh gosh
its been a long time since i went dere
hahahas
brings back memories
ate at KFC wif farhan siti fizah n naz
hahahas
it ws fun lar
eat n tokin n laughin n all
it was cool n fun!!
im happy!! =)
took a lot of pics lar
n der's 1 pic farhan looks so nerdy lar
hahahas
lols
i shant post it
wait he angry sia
hahahas
i scared sia
lols
aft tt all of us parted ways
im wif fizah coz she dunno whr to go nearest mrt
siti n farhan
as usual
hahas
naz alone

so 2dae ws exceptionally nt bad lar
quite fun
n boring due to d waiting for bowling!!!
arggg!!
relli luving my new frens!!
luv dem loads!!
thnxs guys!!
Lost nowhere @ 8:48 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
yoz!!

2dae ws exceptionally boring boring day
had to cum at 11 for d so called principal talks
hahaha
luckily i ws late for it
cum early for wd sia
he ws like toking abt d things abt d skool
wadeva system
blah blah blah
haha
in d end i ws late lar
met my classmates herman felicia naz siti farhan at bedok
yeah
we go skool 2gther
so fun sia!!
hahaha
farhan cut his hair
omg
he look so nerdy lar
hahaha
lols jkjkjk
ok lar he look great as usual
hahaha
farhan n pls dun button up ur shirt
u look super nerdy like tt u noe
hahaha
sori but its true
lols
i actualli i wanted to post his newly haircut
but he sae dun wan lar
hahaha
ok lar
i wont aite
hahas
dun worri bro
i whr gt bad sia
i so kind sia
hahas

2dae i haf a veri terrible headache sia
arggg
hate it so much wen i gt headache
cn die sia
sumore 2daes headache is d worst of all headaches
i cnt even think properly
im in a bad mood
=(
haix
hate it so much
i cnt do anything!!
stupid headache!!!
argggg

all of my frens cared for me
n im relli glad dey did
=)
thnxs u guys
sum1 even wanted to send me home by cab
hahas
no nid de lar
thnxs herman!!
relli appreciate it!!
n thnxs to d rest of my classmates as well!!
luv ya lots!!

QC roxs 4eva!!


my exams are cumin
n my deadline for my projects are cumin soon
haix
so stress cn!!
sumore i haf veri lil time to study for my o lvl
haix
y cnt i jus haf d confidence i haf like last time??
y cnt i belive in myself anymore??
izzt bcoz tt my failures kip haunting me??
haix
i jus duno lar
argggg
but one thing for sure tt i noe veri well is tt
I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH LAR!!
haix
sorri but its true
=(
Lost nowhere @ 8:45 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Hahahaha

u noe wd guys??
2dae is my class QC 1 month anniversary leh
hahahas
so fast rite
hahaha
im relli luving it in ite
bcoz of my classmates
i relli dun regret cumin to ite
=)
criously i dun

nw i kinda regret retakin o lvl
haix
shld i jus finis my ite cert ??
or if i pass my o lvl shld i go ahead to poly if i cn make into my preferred course?
haix
i duno la
ill miss my classmates if i go to poly
but den again
i shld think abt myself rite?
i have been thinkin for otha ppl
but not me
im being selfish to myself
haix

2dae gt afd class test sia
so difficult
i cnt gt full marks sia
argggg
i gt to prove myself tt i cn do dis
but so far i doubt so i cn sia
haix

i relli hope i cn make it!!
if i cn do well in my exams in ite
im sure ill b able to do well in anything
coz my confidence level is not up dere yet!!
argggg
im angry of myself!!
haix

anywae QC happy 1 month anniversary!!
hope all of us will stay united foreva!!
thanks for everything u guys!!
luv ya lots!! =)
Lost nowhere @ 11:06 PM
Monday, May 14, 2007
hahas

2dae went to skool 8am in d morn
jus to take our napfa test!!
arggg
im so pissed off lar
so fast!!
i haven even exercise lar
haven been playing badminton
no strength le
zzzz
sian

i relli relli hate it
early in d morn u expect me to run 2.4km
its relli f**king crazy lar
aiyoh
n i hate all d tchers lar
well nt all lar
its jus tt dey giv me stupid attitude
y?
dey haf sum probs wif ite students izzt??
hello
fyi we are d best in d skool!!!
d best batch ever
so shut ur trap forgdness sake!!
argggg
hahas
lol
did all d 5 stations n i failed 2 of dem for d 1st time
omg
standing broad jump u noe wd
d passing mark is 220cm!!!
i ws like wtf!!!
arggg

we finised our napfa test arnd i think 1130 bah
so all of us chg n sum even bathe
so decided to go out eat
n yeah
wait for d bus cn die sia
so most of us took cab
n waiting for d cab is oso anotha prob!!
wen u wan cab dere is none
wen u dun nid it dere is alot sia!!
criously pissed off!!
hahas

went to eat at pizza hut
yeah
almost half of d class lar
to b exact 22 of us lo
its great!!
pizza hut is full bcoz of us!!
hahas
yeah
we bring in sales to dem
hahas
shld tank us sia!!
hahas lols

at 1st all of us didnt wan to go for bfd
coz we criously damn tired
but tcher sae CANNOT!!
arggg
den we had to go back skool
zzzz -.-
blah blah
stupid lar
haf to go back skool for jus a 2 hrs lesson!!

aft tt all of us went home coz so damn tired lar
accompanied qing to shop n save to buy things
n straight awae aft tt i went home
hahas
too tired le
haf to slp early todae
but by d looks of it
i doubt so
coz everytime aft i bathe
i surely feel refreshed n energized
i dunno y
usuallo ppl bathe aldy cn slp rite
but im d opposite
relli weird!!
hahas
oh well
im still tired n hungry
gotta slp soon!!
cya guys in skool 2moro!
dun b late worx!!
n bring ur giro form!!
hahahas
Lost nowhere @ 8:59 PM




yoz!!
on last sat
dere wasnt suppose to haf any plans lar
but last min sum1 msg me askin me wht i wana go out
so in d end me siti n farhan went out to mit at kallang mrt
suposely to mit at 4pm
but i ws late hahaha
i reach dere 430 lar
hahas
omg
opps
sorri
reach dere n discussed whr our next destination will b
we cldnt decide
criously
so we jus board d mrt n stop at bugis
its random anywae
went to eat at a hawker centre farhan brought us
called TONG SENG
haha
nvr heard of it
i didnt even noe dere is lar
i ate mee soto n he ate i oso dunno sia
but i gt d pics aft we finis eating lar
hahas
it ws not bad
ok lar
avergae i guess
so aft tt we dilly dally dunno go whr
so went to take d mrt to go to marina sqr
hahas

wanted to play pool dere BUT
it ws packed
so went to check out d cinema
but it ws full oso
n d timin ws like so late le lo
so chg plans
we go to plaza singapura
hahas
check out d cinema but none of d show interests us lar
so all tt trouble going to places n more places
in d end we nvr did anything
hahas
all of us like so tired lar
throughout d dae
evry1 ws like so quiet lar
i ws like so boRED!!
cn die u noe
zzzzz -.-
tok more leh ppl pls
for goodness sake
jus tok lar
hahas
cn die sia

so we relli wanted to plae pool so went to parklane to play it
hahas
i didnt noe dere gt lar
i walked dere b4 but didnt realise it
oh well
dere's a first in evrythin isnt it??
met my sec frens
hahas
long time nvr c him sia
we played pool for 1 hour
hahas
wen we playing pool sumthin happen tt me n farhan laugh n until now jus cnt stop laughing
hahas
siti d 'pro' missed hitting d ball
hahahaas
it ws hilarious lar
farhan n me jus cnt stop laughing n teasing her lar
hahas
sorri siti =)
all 3 of us won 2 times
it's a draw!!
yea!!
nvrmind next time ill win evry1
yeah!!!

so aft tt all of us ws hungry coz haven eat dinner
so went to eat myopeh
hahas
at tekka i think
yup
never in my life hav i ever tried eating opeh bee hoon
hahas
its sum sort like mee hongkong lar
but its wrapped (d pic is upstairs)
its actualli quite gd
of course lar
it cost me $6
cn die sia
hahas
farhan ate nasi goreng pattaya(pattaya fried rice)
he like super fast lar eat it
n me n siti were like njoyin our opeh bee hoon
hahas
it ws great
n yup
farhan ws bored n he made a lot of irritating noises n actions
hahas
i shant tell abt it
coz if dis leaks out
he'll kill me wif his 'farhan stunner'
haha
im scared lols
aft tt all of us went our separate ways
hahas

d dae wif dem was quite boring lar
in d most of d time
bt dere were bits n pieces of laughter
which made d whole evening not bad
n i kinda glad tt i went out wif dem
luv u guys lots!!
thnxs for d boring yet fun evening
dere betta b more of dis lil outing aite guys??
cya soon!!
Lost nowhere @ 8:29 PM







yoz!!
hahas
i noe i noe
i haven been updating my blog for 4 days i think
hahas
been bz gg out wif my besties n yeah im lazy
so on last fri
went out wif my besties to eat at simpang bedok
relli mish dem loads!!!
dere ws me,cher,dan,mer,sew,ran,fiz,ner
yeah..n derran cnt make it
coz he gt sumthin on at skool
haix
but nonetheless its great to c my besties at last :)
love dem loads lar!!
we didnt relli ordered much food lar
coz afraid cldnt finish
too bad i dun haf d pics of d food we ate
i haf to go ask my frens for it
next time ill post it aite
hahas
it ws cheap
i think $6.70 per person
so aft tt we went to a cake shop for desserts
n yeah
i ate bluberry mouse
no alcohol ppl!!
hahas
nt bad
i've tasted betta
so its ok =)
we tok a lot lar
n i ws like being questioned abt my laopo ar
hehe =)
until so jialat lo
die sia me
phew
luckily its over le
hahas
izzt such a big deal meh??
hahas
we were bored so decided to stop n jus slack at dan's werk plc
d foo house
its ok lar
d ambience n all nt bad
not too shaby i guess
hahas
we drank vodka well 3 diff kinds lar hor
i cnt remember
hahas
sorri ppl
too bad i didnt drink lar
cannot mah
sian
we played donkey cards number games
haha
tt day i was like kip gg to d toilet lar
coz drank too much water le
-.-
took pictures n more pictures
but i do not haf it now
hahas
aft tt all of dem wanted to go back to tamp to chill
but i didnt wan to go coz it ws late aldy
n if i were to go my cab fare will b like 'boom'
haha
i cnt afford to cab anymore ppl
im damn broke i tell u!!
lazy to werk le n no time babes
no $$ lo
simple as tt
hahas
but its sad tt i didnt follow dem lar
we were suppose to meet derran
coz he ws oni free aft 10pm
too bad man
next time bah
mish him sia
haven seen him for so long lar
hahas
mayb next wk mitin but im jus not free i think
nid to study for my cas tt are cumin
haix
im so stress lar
arggg
i relli dread exams
coz i noe i wont b able to do well for it
haix
y cnt i jus move on??
any1 cn tell me pls??
i nid sum1 to tell me tt i cn do it!!
but will it b enuf ??
haix
half of me wants to move on
but d half of me jus sayin tt UR A FAILURE FOREVA!!!!
HAIX
wd am i suppose to do sia??
mayb tts y wen dere's a class test for afd
i did horrible
relli damn horrible lar
1 of d lowest marks in d class
blieve it or not
im suppose to b gd in poa although i hate d subj so much lar
haix
im so STUPID lar!!!
oh well
i gotta think of sumthin b4 its too late
o lvl is jus cumin le
haix
im at d end!!!!
Lost nowhere @ 8:09 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
yoz!!





last 2 days aft skool


went out wif 3 of my classmates


hairul farhan siti n me


yeah!!


its so fun lar!!


aft skool didnt noe wd to do


so we decided to go out n watch movie


we watched mly ghost story called jangan pandang belakang which means dont look back


hahaha


we watched it at marina sqr coz currently oni dere gt d show


so wen went all d wae dere jus to watch it


haha


wd cn i sae


d show ws js hilarious


hahaha


nt tt scary lar


well to me its not lar


funni sumore lar


hahaha


tt farhan lar so noisy


haha


eat nachos so noisy de


crunch crunch crunch


haha


sumore wen he eat at halfaway le rite den ask wht we all wan sum or nt sia


hahaha


aiyoh


tt farhan ar





so d show ended arnd 630


yup


1 hr n a half show


not bad


so i decided to take neoprints


haha


nthy to do mah


dun wanna go home yet pe


so we walked arnd marina sqr trying to find neoprints machines but dere were none


so went to raffles city but dere were none


so decided to go to bugis coz we all noe dere is


hahaha


we walked quite a distance ar


but it ws fun coz gt hairul farhan n siti


luv ya lots!!


jokin arnd n all


haha


it ws cool n fun!!





so we did took neoprints aft i force dem to take


hehe


it ws funni ar


evry1 were like so funi lar n cute


hahaha


ill post it next time


haven scan it yet ar


sorry :)


so aft tt all of us went home


evry1 were separated coz all live different area mah


except me n farhan takin towards pasir ris


hahaha


spidey farhan


haha





-----------------------------------------------------





im in love


hahaha


i think so bah


shld b lar


yeah


i am


i gt dis feeling in my heart lar


but im nt sure wd exactly izzt


izzt relli true tt hamdan is relli falling in luv aft so many yrs of despair n hurt??


hahahaha


i relli hope so :)





hahaha


during bfd lesson my frens n i took pics together


hahaha



me n my laopo




qiuyue n me me n jeslyn
Lost nowhere @ 12:22 AM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
yoz!!

dere's so many things hapening in skool i tell u
hahaha
okok
let's jus recap wd hapen on last 2 days on fri

fri came to skool alone coz herman's uncle passed away
so he didnt cum to skool
hope he's ok

so went to skool alone
n yeah i reach so early lar
haha
tts wd happens if i go to skool alone
hehehe
didnt saw any of my classmates
so decided to take my books 1st n dilly dally on level 5
hahaha

so 1st lesson is BFD
haix
dis lesson is so damn boring
i jus dun undastand wd dis lesson is all abt
criously
haha

AFD ws next for 2 hrs
so aft skool all of us went for lunch in our skool cafe
n sumthin big happen
well in fact its a confrontation
its all started wen 1 person jus cnt stand it no more
so she decided to confront this guy who is jus too thick skined
well no offense but its true
he jus spread rumors n tell ppl that were so untrue
dis is d 1st time in my life i've come across wif such person
omg
he thinks tt dis gurl like him but NOPE
he is jus being too thick skined rite??
n he so called bad mouthed his frens behind deir backs
sayin tt he is so HANDSOME n d rest of d guys are not (by saying he has no pimples n d rest does)
tt is so absurd!!
the confrontation happened coz he's been buggin my frens non-stop
until she jus cnt take it anymore

she confronted him in d cafe
by attacking him wif qns tt he jus couldnt answer n jus denied evrything
omg
he is such a coward isnt it?
hahaha
no offense relli but its true lar
but the confrontation wasnt relli a crious one
coz evry1 ws mostly laughin n tryin to chg d atmosphere of criousness
haha
is tt sentence correct?
hahaha
well in a way he was humiliated infront of d classmates
but i guess tt has to b done to solve the problem
im sorry but its true
it all happened i guess
oh well

so aft tt went to friday prayers wif my 2 of my classmates
went straight home aft tt coz i dun think gt bowling
hahahaa
hopefully dere is dis cumin fri

went to werk at 7pm
oh gosh
im so tired lar
around 7-8:30 dere wasnt much customer but wen its nearing our closing time
customers jus kip cumin in non-stop
so we cldnt relli close on time
arggg
stupid customers!!!

aft werk all of my colleagues went to kboxing at cini
hahahaha
it ws in d night
oh my god
my voice so nt nice during d nite
duno wht cn sing or not sia
hahaha
well dere were jane eddy ivan gavin kahyin andy me redzuan vison scott spencer
yup
all of my cc colleagues
luv dem!!
we all sang except vsion
who ws jus too shy to sing infront of us
hahaha
oh vison u shld jus try n loosen up n jus sing
hahaha
we sang until 2am in d morn
haha
it ws so late lar
n ltr in d morn im werkin sumore sia
omg
hw to wake up sia
went home by night rider nr7 i think
yup
all of us were tired n shack
sum were drunk
hahaha
who ask dem to drink
muahahahaha

reach home at 3 n i jus slpt
in d end i came to werk late
hahaha
at 10 i jus cldnt wake up early
werk ws unsual strange
in d morn till 3 dere were hardly any customers
wen its time for me to go back
customers jus kip cumin in as awaes
it jus seems tt dey jus dun wanna let me go home
hahaha
n i ws so tired lar
i wanna go home sia!!
argggg
i hate customers
im sick n tired of serving customers!!
reli i do
havin werked for yrs in fnb line
im relli sick of it so much lar!!
muahahaha

next fri my besties gg go out for dinner
yay!!
i relli cnt wait
mish dem so much lar
hahaha
relli i do :)
Lost nowhere @ 7:47 PM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
WOOHOO!!

100 th POST aldy
Yay!!





well 2dae is ws raining cats and dogs sia
ish ish ish ish
f oni i cld jus slp back again
not cum to skool
haha
criously nice weather to slp w/o any disturbances at all
so woke at 610 like tt
i was like so lazy to wake up lar
my mum urging me to wake up go n bath lar gt skool
hahaha
but i jus wont budge
hahaha lol

in d end i ws late to mit my fren herman
but hor he oso late lar
ltr den me sumore sia
hahaha
nvrmind
i waited for him like more den half and hour sia
haha
even siti say tt she b late
but she reach skool earlier den us sia
haha
we eventualli reach skool at 8:30

i ws hapy

u noe y??c

coz my leader nvr smoke in d morn!!

im so proud of him!!
its a start
yay!!
congrats!!
we planned to giv him 2 sticks during lunch
but he said tt he try to tahan and not smoke
n tt if he needed to
he will ask it frm me
hehe
its cool cool
as a reward we giv him sweets
hehehe :)
in d end he could not tahan until aft skool
but its cool
its an improvement for him
so proud :)





2dae for sports and wellness lessons
we had to run 1.6km around d stadium sia
omg!!
its been i think almost 1 yr since i ran n exercise
hahaha
n i think i strained my stomach or sumthin lar
haha
no stamina le
damn!!
den u noe wd aft we had to climb up 5 stairscases up sia
wah!!
torture sia!!
dis is even worse den sec skool pe sia
ish ish ish ish
zzzzzzzzzz





den aft tt end of skool
n we decided to do our bfd project
coz its due on dis fri
all of us bght desserts n sum bgt food
along d wae sumthin happen
tt i ws a lil bit annoyed n hurt
well not relli hurt lar
jokin oni mah
n im used to it anywae
hahaha


den u noe wd?


i dunno y i suddenly jus walk off sia


leaving my grp members


not angry lar


i noe its nothin


SO SORRY!!


haha





bsides i wasnt feeling tt well either


n my mind ws preoccupied wif things of d past


haix


i duno y suddenly i thot abt my failures


haix


i hate myself!!


i relli do!!


i noe in skool i look d cheerful happy guy tt awaes sae tt i sad sia


but truthfully deep down inside i am


its jus tt im gd at covering it so as not to let my frens worry abt me :)


i dun like it


its my own prob


i relli hate myself so much lar


stupid me!!


hw cn i fail my o lvl


d biggest event of my life


n i fail it?


argggggggg


i ws like so down


so moody


i think i almost cried lar


haix


paiseh sia





all d wae to home i ws like so sad


nthy i do cld chg it


coz wd had happen have happened


n it wasnt a happy one


haix


am i jus dumb?


am i jus stupid?


am i even destined for greatness?


ppl sae ill b able to excel in my future endeavours


but deep down inside of me


i noe tt i cnt


haix


i haf such low self-esteem right now


haix


nthy or whoever sae wld help me in anywae


im sorry


but its true


i noe i haf to 4gt abt d past n jus move on


but its not as ez as it looks


i noe i gotta try n all


but i jus cnt


haix


sobx sobx sobx sobx





to my new ite frens


im so thankful to have met u guys


especially my grp namely herman siti felica yvonne jonathan junjie


im relli am fortunate to have known u guys


to tell u guys d truth


i ws afraid to cum to ite


coz im nt sure wht il b able to make any frens at all


im crious


im nt talkative enuf n ya i noe im not cool


who wanna hang out wif such a useless uncool person like me isnt it?


haix


1st dae of skool


gt to noe siti n yvonne 1st


n slowly others all fall into places


im glad n im happy


i relli do


i think


yesh


my greatest wish for myself lar it be more happy


but im nt sure wht i cn lar


to hav known u guys for oni 2 wks tops is ppl sae tt it might b too fast to gt attached to a grp of frens


but i totalli beg to differ


coz im attached to dem aldy


i luv gg to skool bcoz of dem


dey are in d skool


in my class


n im luving evry min spent wif dem


i relli luv dem loads!!


thanks u guys!!


n ya leader abt jus now i relli do hope u didnt smoke rite??


i noe i was suppose to giv u 2 sticks


im sorry to have walk away b4 givin it to u :(


but too many things ws on my mind


n trust me its not abt tt thing tt happen in cafe


coz i noe u all are jus jokin around


n i didnt relli mind tt


its jus tt im pressured


im scared


oh well


haix


hope evrything goes well for me dis yr!!







My Grp!! LUV U GUYS!!
Lost nowhere @ 9:02 PM