Friday, November 03, 2006
haix...u noe wd ppl...im jus scared...o lvl is starting soon...n im nt ready...im jus nt i tell u...ppl sae jus relax...but i mean if u were in my shoes u shld noe hw i feel...i jus afraid...afraid tt ill fail...coz u noe y...if i failed my o lvl...n im done...i dun think i haf d energy to even retake it...or even do anything...haix...wd am i supose to do..2 more daes to o lvl...n im nt prepared...im even gg out jln raye 2moro...i cnt blieve im actualli gg out which im suppose to study...haix...i dunno wd to do...cn sum1 jus giv me sign by 2nite..??.. so i noe wd i shld do...argg...jus hate myself...y am i nt gd in maths??...i sux man...mayb i shld jus study until late nite w/o sleeping...but it wont do me any gd...haix..i jus dunno wd to do lar....Mayb i pushed myself too much...i expect myself too much! n besides ppl around me expect me to get gd grades...im afraid tt ill disappoint dem..coz im jus nt prepared 4 d o lvl....its jus tt lack d confidence in me....y cnt i jus hav faith in myself to do well...to do myself well.....argg...if i fail...i jus gg to cry man...wah...im being so emo dese daes...dunno y...coz too many things have happen...
Mayb i still cnt accept my failure...im nt gd wif failing...i gt a prob man....i dunno...shld i go out 2moro or instead study like hell...mayb tonite i shld study my s.s....i haven even finis d revision...i remember sum of it..i jus nid to recap...so i cn remember it more.....but no mood...but ill try my best ppl...hope i wont disppoint u guys... :(
wish me gd luck ppl!! i nid a lot of luck!!.... thnxs....
ZhAnEy peace out!!