Wednesday, September 27, 2006
HaIx..as daes passed..my confidence drop...all my frens haf confidence in me but i jus cnt blieve in myself anymore...its jus too much 4 me to handle...i jus dunno wd to do anymore...shld i jus dun care abt my prelims results and strive 4ward or b disheartened??...
wd cn i do...??.. i mean if ur strongest subj n u nvr do well in...wont u like in disbelief?? or 1 of ur strongest subj..n u xpect to actualli pass it but ind end u fail...wont it like dampen ur spirit??... haix...i jus dunno wd has cum over me dis yr...im being too emo...hahahahahakz....mayb d pressure is getting to me...or otha probs keep haunting me...argg...i duno wd i shld do nw....ppl arnd me expect great things frm me...its so pressurizing...den wen i fail d subj im gd in...dey like so surprised n cnt blieve it...haix...whr's my confidence gone too..??.. last time im full of confidence n all...i cn do anythin...but nw my confidence is gone..nthy i do came out d wae i wanted it to be...haix..wen a person loses its confidence...he cnt do anything rite or even blieve in himself anymore...n dis results in ppl trying to attempt suicide...haix..hopefully i wont attempt suicide sia...im so scared of o lvl...arnd oni like 1 month left 4 me to study...pressure sia!! my prelims sux!! i pass oni 3 subj...n failed d 3 core subjs...jus cnt blive it...!!!
Mayb i shld nt haf advanced to sec 5...mayb ite suits me betta....n d plc i cn reali excel in...but i nt oni disapoint myself...but my families n frens who blive in me....y izzt so hard 4 me to excel in my studies...??.. am i d study type or am i d hands on person..?...cn any1 tell me..??.. or am i jus stupid..??.. haix...reali hate myself nw...dunno wd am i suppose to do nw...???...
