Saturday, October 07, 2006
HaIx...well i nvr went 2 skool 4 2 daes aldy...im sick...nt realli sick ar..but jus nt in d mood to go to skool n study...haix...jus nid to take a break once in a while...but im afraid i haf to make it quick...coz o lvl is jus round d corner...i haven even started studying yet...haven even touch a bk ....haix...jus nt in d study mood yet...sobx sobx...im realli scared....scared of failing...scared if im unable to pass my o lvl n advance to poly life...haix..i jus dunno wd to do...wd shld i do..??...wen i awaes want to move 4ward...dere's awaes sumtin tt stop me frm doin so...tt is my past...i keep remembering abt my prelims results which i did so badly...haix...im at loss nw...wonda wd wil happen to me if i actualli failed...haix...i guess ill b in depression 4 years...in disbelief....realli in disbelief..mayb i will even fall realli sick...mayb in coma....haix...even betta if i jus die isnt it...??... haix...i nid help...criously...i realli nid help...none of my frens cn help me but myself...come on hamdan...pull urself together...i noe u cn do it! u cn do anythin if u put ur mind n soul into it...but w/o confidence dere's nthy i cn do....haix...