Thursday, November 30, 2006
hey u noe wd guys...i had an unusual dream or shld i sae a joyous dream...i ws happi in tt dream..u noe y..??.. d dream ws abt me getting my o lvl results bah..n oh boy...it ws unexpected....hehehe...i ws so damn happy in my dream...my results ws fabulous....i gt 3 A1..1 A2...1 C5..d otha 1 cnt relli remember... i gt A1 for poa,mly unexpectedly n combined humans....awesome isnt it....n i gt A2 for eng...sci i think i gt a C5..maths cnt remember...oh well...it ws a joyous moment 4 me...i cnt relli remember most of it..but i do noe tt i ws so happy abt my results...cnt stop smiling...hehee...in my dream i went to c my pri skool tcher to share wif her my gd news...she ws so happy 4 me...i ws happy...all d werk haf paid off...well tts all i could remember...hope i dream abt it again 2nite...hehehe....
but it happen in my dreams...will it cum true..??..ppl sae tt dreams are the reality of life...i hope its true...so my dream will cum true in reali life....i haf to pray hard den....pray 4 me u guys...cya....prom is cumin soon..hehehe...cnt wait...
Friday, November 24, 2006
yoz!! 2dae went out 4 badminton wif bestie andrew n ah liang...hehehe...it ws fun...luv it..its nt evrytime we gt 2 plae 2gther u noe...haix...anywae aft tt i straight awae went home coz i gt a splitting headache...ouh...so painful....if nt i'd follow dem to d interchg to pei andrew buy milk....but hey he gt ah liang to pei him so its ok i guess..
so 2nite watched d show charmed last episode...which i missed last time i 4gt y i missed it..so anywae gt to watch it n wow...i relli luved d ending so much...it ws a happy ending...haix...all is perfect...some of d sisters find true love...n gt married...n yada yada...u gt it dun u...its so predictable...n sumtimes i wish i ws in deir shoes...be wif sum1 i love until death...but nt in dis life...its impossible i guess.....even though i noe tt its impossible but i felt touched....coz i wish it ws me who finds happiness n true love...haix...oh well...sum things are meant to hav but sum are nt.....tts reality..u cnt haf evrything....its js nt right...no 1 is perfect...life is nt perfect..so all i cn do nw to treasure wd i haf nw n dun expect anything more....period....
CiAo...
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
yo ppl...2dae officialli d end of my skool term...dun haf 2 cum back to skool...its d end of skool...yeah...well 4 at least 3 months i guess...hehehe...well...2dae went back to skool n gt back my leaving cert..testimonial..n retrospect...hehehe...d bk gt a few of my pics sia...hahaha...paiseh sia...hehehe...but hey i luv it...hahaha...so aft tt i went to accompany a fren of mine to d library...hehehe....yeah...its cool...anywae so aft sending her to d interchange...i went 2 mit up wif my bunch of frens 4 lunch...i had a quick lunch coz wen i arrive dere dey basically finis eating aldy...haix...so fast.... so aft i finis eating all of us parted...well i guess tt ws d so called meal tt i wanted to haf bt it ws nt as i xpected coz its a fast 1..coz all of dem r anxious to go back to deir chalet..n i ws left alone to go back home myself..haix...sad...oh well..at least dey are having fun...w/o me at least...haix...
no mood to write aldy...cYa..
Monday, November 20, 2006
yay!! 2dae d last dae of o lvl!! no nid to study aldy 4 like 3 months..hehehe...happy sia...but actualli im nt tt happy...coz i miss skool...ill miss all my frens....haix...luv dem so much.... i dun wanna b separated wif dem....
Well basically jus nw aft my combined sci mcq pp...i went home straight...ya lar...all my frens gg to chalet...den leave me alone...so sad u noe....a pity im nt in d same class wif dem...sian...if nt ill b havin fun rite nw at d chalet...but 2 bad....im nt...oh well...ill jus rot at hm den...sad rite...haix...
so i decided 2dae to go out n plae sum table tennis wif 2 of my frens...it ws fun!! luv playing table tenis...but an incident happened...nasrul fell n hurt his leg...its quite crious...but i hope he's ok...tk cr aite..rest tt leg of ures properly..den we cn plae table tennis again...hehehe...
2moro i hav to cum back to skool. n take my leaving cert n testimonial n retrospect...sian...lazy sia...but haf to...hehhe..2moro tot of askin my frens to haf our last meal 2gther as a grp...hopefully dey wan...or mayb dey wld jus go back to deir chalet...n leave me alone...haix...we'll c wd happens 2moro den...cya...
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
haix...2dae had my poa pp2 o lvl exam...it sux lor...stupid paper!! hw am i supose 2 gt a1 like dis..ArgG..stupid cambridge!! make it so hard 4 my batch 4 wd sia...d last few yrs so ez....F**k lar!! i guess tt concludes my results....i've jus failed my o lvl!! sobx sobx... all i cn do nw is jus try to boost my courage to finis up my 3 otha last pps...n im free!! yeah...but i jus gt no confidence to continue aldy...haix...gotta pray hard...haix...
Friday, November 10, 2006
haix....jus nw jus did d maths pp2.....i cnt even do a stupid simple cumulative freq graph...hw pathetic am i sia....i jus sux....i jus dunno wht i cn pass my maths n sci....i guess ill b gg to ite...haix..im a failure...haix...i jus am...d odd thing is...i cnt blieve it i actualli cried jus nw in skool...infront of my frens...haix..hw embarrassing is tt sia...but i ws touched...dey actualli tried to comfort me n saying tt i cn pass....dey actualli blieve in me....but i jus dun.....wd am i supose to do....i jus dun man....i hate myself...relli do hate myself.....haix...im still crying nw....mayb i shld jus gt sum slp 2nite...n dun think too much abt it...but its maths...if i fail i cnt go to poly...or even anywhr....f**k!!! argg....f**k myself man....!! haix...oh well...mayb its fate...mayb dis is wd god haf in stored 4 me...haix..i dunno...we'll c in feb..my results...i jus hope i dun fail....or else ill jus collapsed infront of d whole skool.... n mayb even kill myself...i dunno....haix.....
GaMe OvEr!! i jus failed my o lvl!!
I NiD a CoNfIdEnCe BoOst ppl...any1 cn b by my side n cheer me on until i blieve in myself again..???
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
yoZ ppl!! its been a tough 3 dae straight 4 me man....slpet until 2-3 am...omg...i gt eyebags man...i dun look nice...hahaha...o lvl is a torture...i jus cnt wait it to end asap man!! but a few more pps left to go...jia you!! so 2dae had 3 pps man....eng pp1 n pp2... n phy.....eng ws nt bad ar....cn do most of it...but i tink i gt careless mistakes...damn...hate it wen tt happens...summary ws ez...hoepfuly i cn score in summary....
phy ws super duper hard sia...!! i cnt even do most of it...too much thoery based qns..which i so hate it...coz i cnt remember d pts needed to ans...haix...hw to pass sci sia....argg...hw to go to my biomedical course in ngee ann.....haix....anywae dis fri will b maths pp2...im so scared of it...coz im very weak in pp2 especially abt mensuration...oh god i duno wd to do ....haix...no mood nowadays to study..but still haf to ...4 my future...jia you hamdan!!
ZhAnEy peace out!!
Monday, November 06, 2006
u noe wd guys...i eventually made up my mind gg out wif my ph peeps...hehee...yeah..i noe..i shld haf studied...instead of gg out...but mayb i jus nid time to unwind..im too stressed up...hate tt....anywae dis yr dere are more ppl gg raye...approximately 27 ppl i think...yup..yeah...but dere are new staffs frm ph oso ar...nt tt bad i guess...hahaha...especially wen raffel is dere...he's funni...luv tt...it all began wen we mit evry1 at tamp inter...as usual n as xpected...ppl r late...nthy new...well tts human ppl...so we waited 4 at least 30 mins 4 evry1 to arrived tt went off to woodlands to d 1st hse...to nurul jana's hse...as usual like last yr..tt plc is awaes d plc we will go 1st...coz far mah.....we ate our lunch dere...as usual...hahaha...met new ppl...dey're cool...i treat dem like my elder bro...coz most of d guys are older den me...so i like it...being 1 of d so called smallest ppl so its cool...but jus didnt like d gurls of d new staffs...dey r jus cerewet which means fussy...hate tt abt gurls...mayb i shld think twice wht i wanna cum back to ph nt ar...hmm...we'll c bah...i think d gurls r jus immature lar eh...cnt blame dem tt much...but jus cast away tt attitude.... it suxs u noe...
in d bus we had fun...i mean nt me lar..i jus witnessed fun..well nt close wif d new ppl mah...bt dere's 1 act tt is so funni..yup..it gt to do wif raffel...hehehe....as usual...in d bus...he squeeze d private part of sum guy.. n d expression n reaction is so damn funni...hahaha...n raffel is jus mimickin him jus to spite him...hehehe..it relli is funni...den it all began...d war of squeezing..hahaha....lucky im nt a part of it...but witnessing it is as fun as doin it...its cool..
den we went to zul's hse i think...yup..in pasir ris...nice sia d hse..d decoration..omg....fantastic...his dad design it...wow!!! cool...having a dad like tt...den yup...again raffel n bervin dis time...raffel wanted to do sumthin like manhunt..hahaha...compare muscles...well eventually both did it in d room...n i took pics of it...hahaha...its funni...but childish..but its ok...its 4 d fun of it...luv it...i guess raffel is d middle person who actualli make d outing a fun n enjoyable trip 4 me....hehehe....thnxs raffel... :)
each n every hse we went to we ate man...n omg..i think i've gained weight sia...but nvrmind im gg lose weight aft o lvl...yeah...train myself...to b muscular n fit...hahaha...cnt wait to end o lvl....d last hse we went to ws bibah n idah's hse...been to tt place a numerous time...fun...den i ate i think its called mee bandung...i nvr reali tried it b4...so wd d heck jus try it...n actualli nt bad...d gravy is d main ingredient in making d noodles tasty....yummy!! hahaha....but criously didnt like d new ph gurls...dey jus cerewet...eewwww.....
well dere u go...dis is d outing tt ws fun!! i luv it...except 4 d ppl tt i wanted dem to cum n didnt...but it ws ok...raffel make it up 4 tt...hahaha...thnxs little man!! P:S lazy to type d details...sori..
Anywae 2dae on d 6 of nov...d o lvl has begun...n oh boy ws it horrible...my 1st pp ws maths pp1...haix....jus hate maths....i did badly i think...dunno wht i cn pass sia....its a miracle if i did pass...n im so grateful...hopefully evrything turns out great 4 me wen getting my results on feb next yr...social studies ws on d same dae as maths pp1...n haix...it ws terrible...didnt had enuf time to tink n finish up properly all d qns....but phew...i did finis it...but it wasnt an a** answer like i awaes do....but hey...jus haf to study xtra hard 4 hist...to gt a distinction or a b3 at least....pray 4 me ppl...nid all tt...haix....anywae im jus nt in d mood to do anythin rite nw...jus chilling in my room singing my heart out...singing relieves my stress...n hopefully my stress lvl will drop by 8...coz tt wld b d time im studyin my chem 4 2moro o lvl exam...wish me luck....cya...
ZhAnEy peace out!!
Friday, November 03, 2006
haix...u noe wd ppl...im jus scared...o lvl is starting soon...n im nt ready...im jus nt i tell u...ppl sae jus relax...but i mean if u were in my shoes u shld noe hw i feel...i jus afraid...afraid tt ill fail...coz u noe y...if i failed my o lvl...n im done...i dun think i haf d energy to even retake it...or even do anything...haix...wd am i supose to do..2 more daes to o lvl...n im nt prepared...im even gg out jln raye 2moro...i cnt blieve im actualli gg out which im suppose to study...haix...i dunno wd to do...cn sum1 jus giv me sign by 2nite..??.. so i noe wd i shld do...argg...jus hate myself...y am i nt gd in maths??...i sux man...mayb i shld jus study until late nite w/o sleeping...but it wont do me any gd...haix..i jus dunno wd to do lar....Mayb i pushed myself too much...i expect myself too much! n besides ppl around me expect me to get gd grades...im afraid tt ill disappoint dem..coz im jus nt prepared 4 d o lvl....its jus tt lack d confidence in me....y cnt i jus hav faith in myself to do well...to do myself well.....argg...if i fail...i jus gg to cry man...wah...im being so emo dese daes...dunno y...coz too many things have happen...
Mayb i still cnt accept my failure...im nt gd wif failing...i gt a prob man....i dunno...shld i go out 2moro or instead study like hell...mayb tonite i shld study my s.s....i haven even finis d revision...i remember sum of it..i jus nid to recap...so i cn remember it more.....but no mood...but ill try my best ppl...hope i wont disppoint u guys... :(
wish me gd luck ppl!! i nid a lot of luck!!.... thnxs....
ZhAnEy peace out!!
