dis few weeks...i c myself as a failure..nt being to pass my o lvl ws one of it..i still remembered d dae i gt my o lvl results...oh gosh..it jus seems like yesterdae...its so great to finally c all my frens again...i miss dem so much!! but all dose missing is jus gt to wait....
i ws like d 4th or 5th person in my class to gt my results...n oh boy ws it not pretty... except the fact tt all of us had to pay $ 2 as donations to d skool...if nt we cnt gt out results slip...curses!! ok fine...$2 is no biggie...all it matters tt i gt my o lvl results asap....i waited for it so long u noe...but haix... i did so bad... i failed my 2 most important subjs in my life...i jus cnt blive my eyes...
at 1st wen i gt my results i didnt want to cry...it wld embarassing u noe..seeing a guy cry...n i didnt wan my frens to worry...but it ws too much for me to handle..went to my frens n b4 i knew it...tears start rolling down my cheeks...all my frens tried to console me...but i jus cnt stop crying...haix...well it ws kinda funni...coz i used up a lot of tissues...haha...
tt dae ws d dae i actualli lost myself..COMPLETELY...wif all my hopes and dreams shattered....i cldnt possibly noe wd to do next...wif my future ruined...wd's dere for me now..?...i was afraid tt i jus cldnt bring myself up again to stand tall...but wif all d support i gt from my frens i ws kinda able too...well a part me is trying...d otha part of me is jus dead...temporarily..i hope...
i had little confidence in myself in d past..n now dis happen..i doubt dere's anymore confidence left in me to help me blieve in myself n strive forward...haix...
n now im an ite student..well temporarily i hope....retakin my o dis yr....hopefully evrything goes well for me...
haix...hate myself!!
PS: to my frens i hope all of us wont change!! we'll mit again soon...dun forget me hor!! ciao!! take care y'all
