haix...im so scared...im so scared that i cnt make it to poly...i jus dunno wd to do if i cnt make it...am i fated to fail in evrything i do..?? dis past few months been hating myself for nt doin well in my o...haix...i noe i look happy but im jus fakin it...a pic says a thousand words...wenever i look at myself or my recent taken pictures...i cn c tt im nt happi...ill nvr will...
wd's happening to me..??.. sumthin is so wrong...n im nt sure wd....
anywae my colleagues noe aldy tt im quiting soon...dey dun wan me to quit..im like so dunno wd to do lar...haix..im so gg miss dem so much lar...i've been werkin dere for almost 4 months now..n all i hav wif me is beautiful memories...which ill treasure it awaes in my heart...i've made great frens whom i luv dem so much!! honest..i dun wanna quit but i haf to...haix..
2 daea ago i went out wif my besties frm sec skool..gosh miss dem so much lar...hahaha...we were supose to play bowling but in d end it ws full coz a tournament ws gg on...haix..dang it!!..i tot i cld vent my anger on d pins..but haha..too bad...so in d end we took neoprints 3 times...but i didnt look gd in any of it..coz im nt happy at all...i njoyed deir company...thnxs so much..i jus hope tt my unhappiness is nt shown on my face...coz i dun wan to spoil d dae...we were bored so decided to watch a movie titled the messengers...d show ws average..n i now i undatsand y d critics gave tt movie 3 ticks...it ws predictable...so common...cnt dey all jus make a movie tt is different?? izzt tt hard?? hahaha....subsequently aft d movie all of us went home coz ah ner miting her mum to watch a movie tt i oni haven watch it yet...i ws suppose to watch it wif my frens but dey watch it w/o me...sad..relli sad..nw i dunno who to watch wif..i guess ill jus watch it wif my bro...hope he's free...
oh well...jus nw went to werk for 2 hrs oni...help to replace my manager coz she nids to send her parents at d airport...den went home n slpt..it ws like oni nt even half hour...i cldnt sleep at all...usualli wen i cldnt slp coz dere's a lot of things in my mind...haix..i jus dunno wd to do lar...haix...i jus hope evrything will b fine n ill b able to pursue my studies in republic poly....but dis wait is killing me...i want to noe d results fast..so i noe wd to do next...haix...
