HaIz...in class 2dae vry boring...1st 3 period humans...den we haf to grp work..ok lar.. i luv d oing grp work..vry fun!! but hor i hav to present it sia....fuck lar my grp..evrythin i haf to do...dunno y..but i jus hate toking infront of so many ppl...still gt phobia..haiz...hate tt...tot it cured aldy..but by looks of it..i doubt so...haiz...den poa lesson..omg..poa is getting tougher n tougher by d sec...dunno still cn gt a1 nt..haiz..den aft recess 3 boring peroid of maths...its damn boring!!..haiz...im realli realli scared for my o lvl...especially my maths n sci...if i cnt pass tt 2 subj..i cn say byebye to biomedical course in ngee ann poly....sobx sobx...i criously terrified...im nt confident in myself to pass those 2 subjs...its jus hard..im lousy at it...i guess my dream of becoming a doctor is goin to b shattered...i shld jus say byebye to being a doctor in 10 yrs time...haiz..wd am i suppose to do..??... den went 4 prayers wif F,R,L...4 d 1st time yup wif dem....its fun...den we went home..upon reachin hm..i slpt sia...so damn tired i guess...slpt until 5...i noe i zhu..hehehe...den suddenly arnd i think 6+ ar... my mei msg me regarding her relationship...den i knew abt it all along ar but nvr tell her..so i told her....i feel bad nt to tell her but i shldnt interfere mahz...jus trying to help here...haiz...den she reply back.. she sae she hate me lor...nvr help her....she dun wan tok to me liao anymore... i ws like haiz...im trying to help u 2 4 goodness sake...u think im nt..???... haiz... wadeva man...criously...im trying to b a good kor here n a gd fren...but i guess all dey care its abt themselves....i noe im nthy to any1...but haiz...i wan u 2 happi...jus happi...me nt happi nvr mind...jus c ppl happi im realli happi liao...1 my mei 1 i treat him like me best fren...wd am i suppose to do..??....haiz...wadeva..i shld jus stop helping ppl or caring 4 others...n jus care n help myself nw..coz evrythin tt i did 4 ppl...dey jus dun appreciate it...haiz...nw im feeling vry sad relli relli sad...den actualli nw gt 1 person hate me aldy...haiz...sori mei... im realli sori...if u think tt im nt helping u ...den im nt fit to b ur kor....cya.... sad ZhAnEy signing off...peace outz!!
