Saturday, December 22, 2007
Be Strong Be Strong
That is what i have been telling myself to be
be strong hamdan
be strong for yourself
but i cant i relli cant
i jus dunno y
I've completely lost it guys
i tot i could do what i could to be strong
but its jus not possible
not only its hurting me terribly its stop me from tryin to be happy
for once i wanna smile without hurting myself and pretending to smile
WHY CANT I JUS BE HAPPY??
I kip telling myself not to cry
but i cant help it
everytime wen im alone in the middle of the night in my room listening to kelly clarkson 'Because of you'
it simply reminded me of my past
its a meaningful song and it totally describes my life
im a very emotional person
i would breakdown with tears automatically
gosh im emabarassed
a guy crying wat a disgrace
but i dun care doesnt mean ur a guy u cant cry
we're afterall jus humans u noe
oh wells
MY LIFE IS PATHETIC
Im giving up
i cant believe it im actualli GIVING UP
after so long of perseverance im actualli giving up
am i?? shld i??
i cant do it anymore guys i reli cant
its draining me hard
i dun wan to suffer all my life u noe
but is giving up for the time being the solution??
i dunno but all i noe that mayb its for the best(confused)
I nid to tok to sumone now before i relli do giv up
haix
SICK
i was sick for 4 days and still am
having the FLU which comprises of fever sorethroat cough and flu like duh
gosh im awaes getting sick
and i noe y
just yest me n my besties went to slpover at fizah's hse
dere were me,der,dan,fiz,cher,ner,sew,mer
yeap 8 of us
MOVIE MARATHON TIME!!
we watch the SHUTTER!! gosh its the all time horror movie to watch!!
hahaha its scary
everyone was basically screaming n shouting lar that nite
hahaha it was hilarious!!
wanted to watch another horror movie but fizah didnt wan it so its ok
d nite ended being everyone slping except me n sew
hahahaha dey jus too tired bah
d nite was short but i njoyed every min of it
luv spending time wif my besties so much!!
dey awaes brightens up my life =)
love u guys lots!!
dan i noe that ur unhappy
i undastand wd ur feeling rite now
but dun despair dun giv up
i noe u can do it
dis is oni d 1st semester
im sure u cn do betta in d next semester
buck up aite concentrate more on ur studies rite now
im proud that u actualli tok to us telling wds bothering u
it does feel betta isnt it
dun haf to worry wht u broke down or wd i dun care abt that
i relli hope ur alrite dan
im awaes here if u nid me =)
jus treat dis as a lesson learnt
everything gonna b alrite
trust me =)
love u man!!
cant wait to mit u guys again dis coming christmas eve!!
