Everyday passed im getting depressed hahaha i noe i noe i shouldnt b S.U.M.O whc means SHUT UP AND MOVE ON!!! all my frens hav been urging me to move on wif my life forget about me failin my o lvls but i've tried the scar in me jus hasnt healed yet wd do u expect of me man?? im human i cant jus forget things easily i relli wish tt i could jus forget all d things tt made me miserable but that's too much too ask its IMPOSSIBLE!!! I've fallen badly its relli IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO GET UP AND JUS PRETEND NOTHING HAPPENED my dreams are shattered i didnt made it to poly So much wanting to b a doctor in future not a chance Hamdan not a chance ur jus STUPID!!! its jus beyond ur control ur life is destined to b like this
i've awaes felt tt my life is all a lie i've been putting on a happy front im pretending to b sum1 who is happy which im so not n tts sad i dun even noe my purpose in life anymore wd am i suppose to do in life?? jus to fail evry single time in wadeva i do?? or to b successful?? i noe tt my life is in my hands as dey sae u control ur own life but i feel tt me having low self esteem jus impossible for me to control my life now im in doubts i blame myself for evrything i hate myself for being dis way i wanna change but sumthin in me jus wldnt let me n tt is my confidence
a human w/o any confidence wdsoever cant do anything in their way dey cant do anything right even though dey wan too but dey lack of confidence dey dun blive in demselves anymore n tts wd im feeling right now n ever i dun believe in myself anymore =(
i've been emoing/depressed evry single day tts passed feeling sorry for myself tt im being dis wae im veri fragile tts wd my frens sae coz whenever i fell down i cant gt up =( people will get fed up wif me i noe coz im jus stubborn But i assure u guys tt im trying me veri best to blieve in myself again n tryin to move forward n c d brighter side of life =) I HOPE EVRYTHING GOES WELL FOR ME!!!
im relli fortunate to haf frens tt care for me be by my side if i needed dem but i feel tt i've disappointed dem =( coz im still stuck at dis junction i cant move its like im being super glued or sumthing its definitely not a gd ting its been years im being this way n i relli badly want to breakaway frm all this misery der's oni 1 person cn help me MYSELF I WAN TO BE HAPPY AGAIN!!
