WOOHOO!!
100 th POST aldy
Yay!!
well 2dae is ws raining cats and dogs sia
ish ish ish ish
f oni i cld jus slp back again
not cum to skool
haha
criously nice weather to slp w/o any disturbances at all
so woke at 610 like tt
i was like so lazy to wake up lar
my mum urging me to wake up go n bath lar gt skool
hahaha
but i jus wont budge
hahaha lol
in d end i ws late to mit my fren herman
but hor he oso late lar
ltr den me sumore sia
hahaha
nvrmind
i waited for him like more den half and hour sia
haha
even siti say tt she b late
but she reach skool earlier den us sia
haha
we eventualli reach skool at 8:30
i ws hapy
u noe y??c
coz my leader nvr smoke in d morn!!
im so proud of him!!
its a start
yay!!
congrats!!
we planned to giv him 2 sticks during lunch
but he said tt he try to tahan and not smoke
n tt if he needed to
he will ask it frm me
hehe
its cool cool
as a reward we giv him sweets
hehehe :)
in d end he could not tahan until aft skool
but its cool
its an improvement for him
so proud :)
2dae for sports and wellness lessons
we had to run 1.6km around d stadium sia
omg!!
its been i think almost 1 yr since i ran n exercise
hahaha
n i think i strained my stomach or sumthin lar
haha
no stamina le
damn!!
den u noe wd aft we had to climb up 5 stairscases up sia
wah!!
torture sia!!
dis is even worse den sec skool pe sia
ish ish ish ish
zzzzzzzzzz
den aft tt end of skool
n we decided to do our bfd project
coz its due on dis fri
all of us bght desserts n sum bgt food
along d wae sumthin happen
tt i ws a lil bit annoyed n hurt
well not relli hurt lar
jokin oni mah
n im used to it anywae
hahaha
den u noe wd?
i dunno y i suddenly jus walk off sia
leaving my grp members
not angry lar
i noe its nothin
SO SORRY!!
haha
bsides i wasnt feeling tt well either
n my mind ws preoccupied wif things of d past
haix
i duno y suddenly i thot abt my failures
haix
i hate myself!!
i relli do!!
i noe in skool i look d cheerful happy guy tt awaes sae tt i sad sia
but truthfully deep down inside i am
its jus tt im gd at covering it so as not to let my frens worry abt me :)
i dun like it
its my own prob
i relli hate myself so much lar
stupid me!!
hw cn i fail my o lvl
d biggest event of my life
n i fail it?
argggggggg
i ws like so down
so moody
i think i almost cried lar
haix
paiseh sia
all d wae to home i ws like so sad
nthy i do cld chg it
coz wd had happen have happened
n it wasnt a happy one
haix
am i jus dumb?
am i jus stupid?
am i even destined for greatness?
ppl sae ill b able to excel in my future endeavours
but deep down inside of me
i noe tt i cnt
haix
i haf such low self-esteem right now
haix
nthy or whoever sae wld help me in anywae
im sorry
but its true
i noe i haf to 4gt abt d past n jus move on
but its not as ez as it looks
i noe i gotta try n all
but i jus cnt
haix
sobx sobx sobx sobx
to my new ite frens
im so thankful to have met u guys
especially my grp namely herman siti felica yvonne jonathan junjie
im relli am fortunate to have known u guys
to tell u guys d truth
i ws afraid to cum to ite
coz im nt sure wht il b able to make any frens at all
im crious
im nt talkative enuf n ya i noe im not cool
who wanna hang out wif such a useless uncool person like me isnt it?
haix
1st dae of skool
gt to noe siti n yvonne 1st
n slowly others all fall into places
im glad n im happy
i relli do
i think
yesh
my greatest wish for myself lar it be more happy
but im nt sure wht i cn lar
to hav known u guys for oni 2 wks tops is ppl sae tt it might b too fast to gt attached to a grp of frens
but i totalli beg to differ
coz im attached to dem aldy
i luv gg to skool bcoz of dem
dey are in d skool
in my class
n im luving evry min spent wif dem
i relli luv dem loads!!
thanks u guys!!
n ya leader abt jus now i relli do hope u didnt smoke rite??
i noe i was suppose to giv u 2 sticks
im sorry to have walk away b4 givin it to u :(
but too many things ws on my mind
n trust me its not abt tt thing tt happen in cafe
coz i noe u all are jus jokin around
n i didnt relli mind tt
its jus tt im pressured
im scared
oh well
haix
hope evrything goes well for me dis yr!!
My Grp!! LUV U GUYS!!
