Sunday, February 11, 2007
haix...2daes ago i jus received my o lvl results..whc i waited for so damn long to gt it...but it ws a disappointment....I FAILED MY MATHS N SCIENCE!!! i jus dunno wd to do nw..im at a loss rite nw...ppl told me its nt d end but its relli damn hard to pick myself up n move on 4ward wif my head up high...dey jus dun gt it...i failed my maths n science...whr cn i go..?..my future is jus ruined..i jus duno wd to do....
d dae i gt my results ws d dae i actualli cried my heart out...i cried in d skool hall...it ws pretty embarrasing...but i cldnt care less anywae...sum of my frens tried to console me...being dere 4 me..saying tt its nt d end n stuffs...i wld relli wanna tank dem so much!! i relli appreciate it...i relli needed sum 1 2 b dere 4 me coz i noe i'll nvr do well in my o...too many probs n i jus cldnt concentrate on my o lvl properly...its amazing tt i cld actualli gt B3 for my combined humans n poa....its relli a miracle i mus sae...
dere are oso ppl who nvr did well..i relli pity dem...i hope all of dem r ok...ill b dere 4 dem if dey nid me... :) ...
its been 2 daes tt i tried consoling myself tt its nt d end...try have faith in myself..i noe i cn do it...d oni mindset i have now is mostly negative...i jus cant go on like dis..at dis rate i cld jus collapsed anytime w/o knowing it myself....i've been telling myself tt its nt d end...mayb dis is wd god have in store 4 me...a very hard obstacle blocking my career...n tt its a challenge 4 me to get thru dis BIG obstacle tt is blocking my way....i hope that dis will b a blessing in disguise..i relli hope so....
nt oni i disappointed myself...but i disappoint my parents as well who hav high hopes 4 me...im such a useless son!!! i cnt even do well in my exams...hw stupid cn i b....haix...im so sorry....i noe u guys are disappointed even though u guys sae its ok...u tried ur best...but i noe u are...im relli reli sorry..i will make it up to all of u...
im gg thru a rough patch here...n i didnt noe it wld b tt hard 4 me to actualli gt back on my feet again...i relli nid all my frens to help me get thru dis...but i noe dey wont hav time 4 me..dey cnt possibly concentrate evrytin of me isnt it...?? so i relli nid to try werk things out on my own...but of course wif sum help of my bestest frens...i relli hope u guys cn help me...coz i jus dunno wd ill do w/o u guys...
evytime wen im alone...nthy to do...my o results wld instantly pop in my mind...n i wld automatically cry...tears in my eyes...haix...i wld think tt its d end of d world 4 me...no future at all...I JUS HATE MYSELF!! im so sorry u guys!!
i hope i cn gt thru dis obstacle b4 i collapse......
