yoZ!! wassup!! hahaha... d 1st dae i start to do my blog... hMmm... let me jus start wif a sad dae tt happen dis yr... haiz.. i wanna cry nw... haiz.... my life jus suxZ! i jus duno who my real frens ar... its jus tt i feel VRY neglected..left out...even an XTRA...Haiz... i duNno.... Mayb i jus mix wif d wrong grp of frens or not meant to have any... REALLI miss my PRI sKool mates badly... they're d best!! I luv dem so much... muakz...haiz...:( BuT tt are all in d past... nw we cn oni mit up mayb once in a blue moon... some sae 5 yrs.. walao!!.. so long sia... i cnt wait tt long!! Nw im mixing wif a grp of frens tt care 4 me n i cn c tt u guys do care...yup... i appreciate it...thnxs a lot u guys!! but i guess i still feel neglected n left out most of d time..mayb coz u all are like so BLOODY close n same class..so mix arnd easily..c each otha evry single dae...haiz...but nt me.. sobx sobx...i didnt voice out my pain coz i guess u all dun really care abt me..(tears rolling dwn my cheek while typing dis dwn) Dis grp chg me alot..i bcome more talkative tend to open up more..last time i ws so quiet..criously..like my mouth gt glue like tt... hehe... i tend to keep things alot to myself..bottle evrything up...up till nw i still do...haiz...DeRe's D,D,C,M,F...i feel vry xtra u noe..u guys are like so complete w/o me i guess...all of dem so close...n im jus like d odd 1 out...haiz...I jus like wanna cry thinkin of dis..nw D & C are 2gther!!..so happi 4 dem!! been waiting 4 dis dae to cum...its hard 4 me 2 actualli gt closer to dem coz we're in diff class..haiz....tt suxs big time...5 of dem 2gther n im alone...im nt close to any1 in class xcept A i guess...(i dunno wht i cn rely on him though) haiz...wadeva man!! sobx sobx.. its obvious tt im d XTRA 1...i didnt xpect u guys 2 undastand...furthermore..u guys nvr tell me anything..especially wen i ask D abt sumthin..he jus sae i dun nid to noe...tt is d time i noe whr my plc realli is..NOWHR!!! FUCK lar!! coz none of u guys actualli cared abt me..haiz... oh well... Nw i've been trying to mix arnd wif A...but i guess he prefers to mix arnd wif hs bros n nppc mates...i undastand de....no worries..Its hard to substitute u guys wif him..i knew u guys since sec 1.. n jus knew him sec 3 n close to him dis yr i guess..haiz..Other den tt...nw i gt a god sis tt care 4 me.. but i told her to pae more attention to her laogong betta....:) im nthy to any1..CRIOUSLY i think ppl treat me like DIRT!! haiz..wadeva!!... Sorri u guys 4 nt telling u dis...it doesnt make any diff u guys noe abt it...peace outZ!! ZhAnEy..
